Leia isto se o seu quase relacionamento o tornou incapaz de amar novamente

Foi fácil voltar para ele. Era como um acontecimento natural. Ele tornava a minha vida num inferno. Depois, eu perdoava-o e, quando dava por mim, estávamos de novo no início.

Pareceu-me natural voltar para ele, uma vez que não tinha mais ninguém por quem esperar. Ele era tudo o que eu conhecia, e perdi a capacidade de ver que existem outros homens por aí que me tratariam como eu mereço.

Perdi a capacidade de me ver a mim própria e o quão infeliz eu era em tudo aquilo. Cada vez que voltava aos seus braços, esquecia-me de tudo o que estava errado entre nós.

Eu não sou a vítima aqui. Não me estou a justificar. Fiquei numa coisa quase porque era demasiado medo de estar sozinho—even though that almost made me lonelier than I have ever been.

I was forcing something to work, even though it wasn’t right for me. It was all messy with a lot of back and forths. And before I knew it, my subconscious was telling me that there is nothing better out there for me.

It’s incredible how something that doesn’t seem so harmful like an almost relationship can do so much damage. It makes you lose your pride because you continuously forgive the unforgivable.

It makes you lose your sense of self and your confidence because you keep going back to someone who doesn’t see you—nnão o verdadeiro tu.

All he is interested in is your naked body and all the good you can do for him. He doesn’t care how your day went. He doesn’t know your dreams or hidden desires. He certainly has no idea about your problems.

He is clueless about the fact that you couldn’t sleep last night because he didn’t text you back the entire day. He doesn’t want to see that you love him so much that you put his needs before your own.

He doesn’t mind that you worry about his troubles and that you are trying to make it easier on him. All he does is take your efforts for granted and play with your heart like it’s not his business.

He doesn’t know and it doesn’t affect him in any way that he has made you think that you are unable to love again; that he has taken all your love and energy with him that day he chose to walk away for good.  

Now, you are tired because the almost relationship exhausted you. It led you on this emotional roller coaster trip you weren’t prepared for.

Fazia com que cada dia ou cada semana fosse diferente. Um dia seria cheio de lágrimas e o outro de risos, dependendo da sua vontade de entrar e sair da sua vida.

Mas o que não vê é que o fim do uma quase relação é a melhor coisa que te poderia ter acontecido.

You can finally rest and recover all the energy it has taken from you. You don’t have to wait around for him to call or text back. You don’t have to ask for his time. You don’t have to wait until he is ready to be in something more committed.  

You won’t have to burden yourself with his problems. You will concentrate on you, on mending your heart and making your life better. You will learn to love yourself again.

You are done waiting for anybody or anything, and it’s the most liberating feeling ever.

An almost relationship won’t be something that’s holding you away from love. It will be the exact thing that will help you recognize real love when it comes your way.

Saberás como o amor nunca deve ser. Saberás the things that you won’t settle for ou ignorar. Saberá que o que precisa e quer num homem não é nada parecido com o que já teve.

Voltarás a amar alguém com todo o teu coração e mais do que alguma vez pensaste ser possível. You will know it’s real porque serás amado de volta.

Essa quase relação que tiveste em tempos não será mais do que uma memória distante e a melhor lição que poderias ter tido na vida.