Lee esto si tu casi relación te hizo incapaz de volver a amar

Fue fácil volver con él. Era como algo natural. Hacía de mi vida un infierno. Entonces, le perdonaba, y antes de que me diera cuenta, estábamos de vuelta al principio.

Me pareció natural volver a él, ya que no tenía a nadie más a quien esperar. Él era todo lo que conocía, y perdí la capacidad de ver que hay otros hombres ahí fuera que me tratarían como merezco.

Perdí la capacidad de verme a mí misma y lo infeliz que era en todo aquello. Cada vez que volvía a estar en sus brazos me hacía olvidar todo lo que nos pasaba.

No soy la víctima. No me estoy justificando. Me quedé en algo casi porque era demasiado miedo a estar solo—even though that almost made me lonelier than I have ever been.

I was forcing something to work, even though it wasn’t right for me. It was all messy with a lot of back and forths. And before I knew it, my subconscious was telling me that there is nothing better out there for me.

It’s incredible how something that doesn’t seem so harmful like an almost relationship can do so much damage. It makes you lose your pride because you continuously forgive the unforgivable.

It makes you lose your sense of self and your confidence because you keep going back to someone who doesn’t see you—no el verdadero tú.

All he is interested in is your naked body and all the good you can do for him. He doesn’t care how your day went. He doesn’t know your dreams or hidden desires. He certainly has no idea about your problems.

He is clueless about the fact that you couldn’t sleep last night because he didn’t text you back the entire day. He doesn’t want to see that you love him so much that you put his needs before your own.

He doesn’t mind that you worry about his troubles and that you are trying to make it easier on him. All he does is take your efforts for granted and play with your heart like it’s not his business.

He doesn’t know and it doesn’t affect him in any way that he has made you think that you are unable to love again; that he has taken all your love and energy with him that day he chose to walk away for good.  

Now, you are tired because the almost relationship exhausted you. It led you on this emotional roller coaster trip you weren’t prepared for.

Hacía que cada día o cada semana fuera diferente. Uno estaría lleno de lágrimas y el otro de risas, dependiendo de su voluntad de entrar y salir de tu vida.

Pero lo que no ves es que el fin de una casi relación es lo mejor que te podría haber pasado.

You can finally rest and recover all the energy it has taken from you. You don’t have to wait around for him to call or text back. You don’t have to ask for his time. You don’t have to wait until he is ready to be in something more committed.  

You won’t have to burden yourself with his problems. You will concentrate on you, on mending your heart and making your life better. You will learn to love yourself again.

You are done waiting for anybody or anything, and it’s the most liberating feeling ever.

An almost relationship won’t be something that’s holding you away from love. It will be the exact thing that will help you recognize real love when it comes your way.

Sabrás cómo no debe ser nunca el amor. Sabrás the things that you won’t settle for o pasar por alto. Sabrás que lo que necesitas y quieres en un hombre no se parece en nada a lo que ya tenías.

Volverás a amar a alguien con todo tu corazón y más de lo que jamás creíste posible. You will know it’s real porque serás correspondido.

Esa casi relación en la que estuviste una vez no será más que un recuerdo lejano y la mejor lección que podrías haber tenido en la vida.