Não mereces seguir-me até 2025

Não me deste nada mais do que tristeza em 2024, por que razão hei-de trazer-te comigo para 2025?

I want to enter this coming year with only good things. I decided to leave everything that hurt me, made me sad or left me a little broken in this year—2024. I hope now you understand why I don’t want you next to me anymore.

Arruinaste literalmente o meu último ano e sei que carrego parte da culpa porque te dei demasiado poder sobre mim. Felizmente, ganhei juízo e agora sei que não vou cometer o mesmo erro duas vezes.

This year was an emotional rollercoaster for me. You made it like that. You left and then you wanted to come back. You didn’t care how that made me feel. You didn’t care that it broke me.

Só piorei as coisas para mim própria ao aceitar-te de volta, porque te dei mais oportunidades de continuares a destruir-me.

You said you wanted to be with me and only me, and then I’d find out that you had plenty of other girls in your life. I guess you wanted to be with me and fifty of them, too. And I didn’t want to be just a number to you.

You made me believe you cared for me. But I couldn’t count on you when I needed you the most. You were never there. And the worst part of it is that I felt more alone with you than I am now by myself.

Tu foste a razão de todas as noites mal dormidas durante este último ano. Tu foste a razão de todas as lágrimas que rolaram pelo meu rosto.

Era por tua causa que eu odiava levantar-me da minha cama de manhã. Odiava o dia que tinha acabado de começar porque sabia que ia ser preenchido com pensamentos sobre ti.

It seemed like you were doing things intentionally… just to hurt me.

Eras egoísta como sempre e nunca pensaste em como as tuas palavras e os teus actos me afectariam, mas parecia que para ti era um bónus se me fizesses sentir miserável comigo mesma.

And on the other side, I did the opposite. I wanted to be there for you. I wanted us to work out. I tried so hard to be good enough for you, but somehow I didn’t manage to satisfy your criteria.

Quanto melhor te tratava, pior eras para mim.

You had to put me down so you could feel better about yourself and you succeeded in your attempts. I felt worthless. You lowered my self-esteem so much that I wasn’t even a shadow of a woman I used to be.

Odiava este sentimento de inadequação que me perseguia. Sentia que, independentemente do que fizesse, nunca era suficientemente bom.

You kept saying how I’m ruining everything for you. You kept saying I should be happy that you give me any time of yours because I didn’t deserve even the time I fez obter.

In your mind, you were just one of those generous guys who didn’t have a mean bone in their bodies so you decided to stick with me. Well, as if!

You were with me just to have someone. I was good to you. Nobody cared for you as much as I did and that’s why you kept coming back to me. But you didn’t really love me.

Because if you did, you’d care about how I feel. You’d pay attention to the things you did and you’d make sure you don’t do anything to hurt me. But somehow, everything you did was like a dagger straight in my heart.

Mesmo quando estávamos juntos, nunca senti que fosses minha. Sentia que todos te tinham mais do que eu.

You don’t know how that feels because you were always my priority, but trust me when I tell you, it hurts like hell to know the person you care the most for doesn’t really give a damn about you.

Dói muito quando somos apenas uma opção para alguém que é o nosso mundo.

A verdade é que me cansei de tudo.

I got tired of being sad. I got tired of waiting for someone who isn’t coming. I got tired of wanting you when you wanted everyone else but me. And most of all, I got tired of loving someone who didn’t love me back.

Daí a decisão de cortar todos os meus laços convosco, aqui e agora.

I decided to leave ‘us’ e tudo o que poderemos ser em 2024.

Decidi começar um novo capítulo da minha vida neste ano que ainda está para vir e espero que seja melhor do que o anterior.

But I can’t get a fresh start or look forward to a happy ending if I let the same people who broke me play main roles in this new chapter.

You did too many bad things to me and I’m sorry, but someone like you doesn’t deserve to follow me into 2025. You don’t deserve to play any role in my new chapter. That’s why I’m leaving you in the past.

I’m ready for new things in life. I’m ready to finally embrace my life and I’m ready to stop giving the best of me to people who don’t deserve me, and you, my dear, never really deserved me.