Non meriti di seguirmi nel 2025

Nel 2024 mi hai dato solo dolore, quindi perché dovrei portarti con me nel 2025?

I want to enter this coming year with only good things. I decided to leave everything that hurt me, made me sad or left me a little broken in this year—2024. I hope now you understand why I don’t want you next to me anymore.

Hai letteralmente rovinato il mio ultimo anno e so di avere una parte di colpa perché ti ho dato troppo potere su di me. Per fortuna sono rinsavita e ora so che non farò lo stesso errore due volte.

This year was an emotional rollercoaster for me. You made it like that. You left and then you wanted to come back. You didn’t care how that made me feel. You didn’t care that it broke me.

Ho solo peggiorato le cose per me stessa, riprendendoti, perché ti ho dato più possibilità di continuare a rompermi.

You said you wanted to be with me and only me, and then I’d find out that you had plenty of other girls in your life. I guess you wanted to be with me and fifty of them, too. And I didn’t want to be just a number to you.

You made me believe you cared for me. But I couldn’t count on you when I needed you the most. You were never there. And the worst part of it is that I felt more alone with you than I am now by myself.

Sei stato il motivo di ogni singola notte insonne durante quest'ultimo anno. Tu sei stato ogni lacrima che è scesa sul mio viso.

Eri il motivo per cui odiavo alzarmi dal letto la mattina. Odiavo la giornata appena iniziata perché sapevo che sarebbe stata piena di pensieri su di te.

It seemed like you were doing things intentionally… just to hurt me.

Eri egoista come sempre e non pensavi mai all'effetto che le tue parole e le tue azioni avrebbero avuto su di me, ma sembrava che per te fosse un bonus se mi facevi sentire infelice con me stesso.

And on the other side, I did the opposite. I wanted to be there for you. I wanted us to work out. I tried so hard to be good enough for you, but somehow I didn’t manage to satisfy your criteria.

Più ti trattavo bene e peggio eri per me.

You had to put me down so you could feel better about yourself and you succeeded in your attempts. I felt worthless. You lowered my self-esteem so much that I wasn’t even a shadow of a woman I used to be.

Odiavo il senso di inadeguatezza che mi accompagnava. Mi sembrava che qualsiasi cosa facessi, non fosse mai abbastanza.

You kept saying how I’m ruining everything for you. You kept saying I should be happy that you give me any time of yours because I didn’t deserve even the time I fatto ottenere.

In your mind, you were just one of those generous guys who didn’t have a mean bone in their bodies so you decided to stick with me. Well, as if!

You were with me just to have someone. I was good to you. Nobody cared for you as much as I did and that’s why you kept coming back to me. But you didn’t really love me.

Because if you did, you’d care about how I feel. You’d pay attention to the things you did and you’d make sure you don’t do anything to hurt me. But somehow, everything you did was like a dagger straight in my heart.

Anche quando stavamo insieme, non ti ho mai sentita mia. Sembrava che tutti gli altri ti avessero più di me.

You don’t know how that feels because you were always my priority, but trust me when I tell you, it hurts like hell to know the person you care the most for doesn’t really give a damn about you.

Fa un male cane quando sei solo un'opzione per qualcuno che è tutto il tuo mondo.

La verità è che mi sono stancato di tutto.

I got tired of being sad. I got tired of waiting for someone who isn’t coming. I got tired of wanting you when you wanted everyone else but me. And most of all, I got tired of loving someone who didn’t love me back.

Da qui la decisione di tagliare tutti i miei ponti con voi, qui e ora.

I decided to leave ‘us’ e tutto ciò che potremmo essere nel 2024.

Ho deciso di iniziare un nuovo capitolo della mia vita in questo anno che deve ancora arrivare e spero che sia migliore del precedente.

But I can’t get a fresh start or look forward to a happy ending if I let the same people who broke me play main roles in this new chapter.

You did too many bad things to me and I’m sorry, but someone like you doesn’t deserve to follow me into 2025. You don’t deserve to play any role in my new chapter. That’s why I’m leaving you in the past.

I’m ready for new things in life. I’m ready to finally embrace my life and I’m ready to stop giving the best of me to people who don’t deserve me, and you, my dear, never really deserved me.