Para o meu ex: Foi por isto que te bloqueei

Não quero que apareças na minha vida quando te apetece e estragues tudo.

I am in a good place now. I’ve finally found peace, and I don’t want you to tamper with that.

You’ve already taken me to enough roller coaster rides. I don’t need one more.

I blocked you because I want to let you know that I am not available anymore. I won’t jump to see you when you send me a drunken texto noturno.

I won’t be ecstatic from happiness because you remembered I exist. I don’t want to be that girl anymore. I won’t be a doormat you can step on.

I don’t want you to have an insight into my life.

I don’t want to think about what to post or not to post on my social media out of fear you’ll see it.

I don’t want you to feel like I’m sending you some hidden messages through the posts I share.

I don’t want you to know where I am and am I seeing anybody. I don’t want you to know anything about me. You lost that right as soon as you took an exit lane out of my life.

I don’t want to know what’s going on in your life.

I don’t want to see the new girl you are dating. I don’t need to see where you have been and what are you up to these days.

You became my past by your own choice, and it’s best I leave you there. There’s no point in keeping tabs on each other. That’s not the way to let somebody go.

I don’t want to be tempted to check up on you.

If I hadn’t bloqueou-oSei que haveria alturas em que navegaria pelas vossas contas nas redes sociais, à procura de sabe Deus o quê.

At those moments, I would be stricken by nostalgia or I would be just curious. I really can’t tell which, but I know it wouldn’t do me any good.

Precisava de me lembrar de quem eu era antes de tu entrares na minha vida.

I’ve forgotten about that girl. I’ve forgotten her smile. I’ve forgotten what happiness looks like. Intentionally or unintentionally, you took the parts of me I treasured the most.

You took my self-esteem. You took my inner peace. You took my happiness. It’s time I get them back.

It’s time I hit the restart button on my life and reencontrar-me, and I can’t do that if you keep popping up at my news feed.

Tenho de me conformar com o facto de que nunca vais mudar.

Vais ficar sempre como estás. Nunca me vais apreciar.

Sempre me tomarás por garantido. Passarás sempre por cima de mim.

I don’t want to grant you access into my life anymore. I won’t allow you to keep going in and out of my life. I won’t allow you to hurt me again. I’ve had enough.

I blocked you because I don’t need strangers in my life.

Nunca te conheci, embora gostasse tanto de ti. Nunca foste honesto em relação a nada. Disseste que nunca farias nada para me magoar, mas apunhalaste-me pelas costas. Trouxeste-me lágrimas e dor.

You didn’t care how I felt about what your actions did to me, and I don’t need someone like that in my life.

Já não és alguém familiar e próximo do coração. Agora não és mais do que um perfeito estranho.

I blocked you because I know deep down that I don’t need you anymore.

Tudo o que preciso é de mim próprio. E agora sei que sou suficiente. Bloquear-te foi a melhor coisa que alguma vez fiz.

Bloquear é paz na minha mente. Bloqueio é metade da saúde. Bloquear é uma vida mais feliz e mais saudável. Bloqueio é amor-próprio, e eu preciso de mais disso na minha vida.