A mi ex: Por esto te he bloqueado

No quiero que aparezcas en mi vida cuando te apetezca y lo estropees todo.

I am in a good place now. I’ve finally found peace, and I don’t want you to tamper with that.

You’ve already taken me to enough roller coaster rides. I don’t need one more.

I blocked you because I want to let you know that I am not available anymore. I won’t jump to see you when you send me a drunken texto nocturno.

I won’t be ecstatic from happiness because you remembered I exist. I don’t want to be that girl anymore. I won’t be a doormat you can step on.

I don’t want you to have an insight into my life.

I don’t want to think about what to post or not to post on my social media out of fear you’ll see it.

I don’t want you to feel like I’m sending you some hidden messages through the posts I share.

I don’t want you to know where I am and am I seeing anybody. I don’t want you to know anything about me. You lost that right as soon as you took an exit lane out of my life.

I don’t want to know what’s going on in your life.

I don’t want to see the new girl you are dating. I don’t need to see where you have been and what are you up to these days.

You became my past by your own choice, and it’s best I leave you there. There’s no point in keeping tabs on each other. That’s not the way to let somebody go.

I don’t want to be tempted to check up on you.

If I hadn’t te bloqueóSé que habría momentos en los que navegaría por tus cuentas de redes sociales, buscando Dios sabe qué.

At those moments, I would be stricken by nostalgia or I would be just curious. I really can’t tell which, but I know it wouldn’t do me any good.

Necesitaba recordar quién era antes de que entraras en mi vida.

I’ve forgotten about that girl. I’ve forgotten her smile. I’ve forgotten what happiness looks like. Intentionally or unintentionally, you took the parts of me I treasured the most.

You took my self-esteem. You took my inner peace. You took my happiness. It’s time I get them back.

It’s time I hit the restart button on my life and encontrarme de nuevo, and I can’t do that if you keep popping up at my news feed.

Tengo que hacer las paces con que nunca cambiarás.

Siempre seguirás siendo como eres. Nunca me apreciarás.

Siempre me darás por sentado. Siempre pasarás por encima de mí.

I don’t want to grant you access into my life anymore. I won’t allow you to keep going in and out of my life. I won’t allow you to hurt me again. I’ve had enough.

I blocked you because I don’t need strangers in my life.

Nunca te conocí a pesar de que me importabas mucho. Nunca fuiste sincero en nada. Dijiste que nunca harías nada para herirme, pero me apuñalaste por la espalda. Me trajiste lágrimas y dolor.

You didn’t care how I felt about what your actions did to me, and I don’t need someone like that in my life.

Ya no eres alguien familiar y cercano. Ahora no eres más que un perfecto desconocido.

I blocked you because I know deep down that I don’t need you anymore.

Todo lo que necesito es a mí misma. Y ahora sé que soy suficiente. Bloquearte fue lo mejor que hice.

El bloqueo es la paz en mi mente. El bloqueo es la mitad de la salud. El bloqueo es una vida más feliz y saludable. Bloquear es amor propio, y necesito más de eso en mi vida.