Uma carta para o homem que não estava preparado para o meu amor

After all this time, I’m still hoping.

I’m hoping that maybe one day you will explain why you left me.

I know it’s wrong. I should just leave you in the past and simply move on with my life.

But that’s not easy.

Como é que se ultrapassa algo que se pensava que ia durar para sempre?

Como é que se deixa para trás alguém por quem se tinha sentimentos tão fortes e a quem se amava de todo o coração?

To be honest, I don’t know how many times I tried to write this letter and I couldn’t do it.

As minhas emoções estavam à flor da pele.

Continuo a amar-te.

However, I was also angry because I couldn’t believe it was so easy for you to let me go. To let our love go.

Agora, estou zangada comigo mesma por ter amado alguém que nunca foi meu, que me deixou sem palavras.

Senti-me traída porque me mentiu.

How many times did you say that you would do anything for me, that there was nothing in this world you wouldn’t have done for me?

Bem, a única coisa que tinhas de fazer era amar-me como eu te amava. E falhaste.

I felt sad. That’s it. I felt so profoundly sad.

Não há palavras suficientes para descrever este sentimento.

Espero que compreendas o que fizeste e as consequências que deixaste em mim. Deixaste uma marca inegável no meu coração.

If you ever cared for me, you wouldn’t have made me feel like this.

I was afraid. I was actually worried about my mental health because I didn’t think I was strong enough to cope with you leaving.

As cicatrizes que deixaste assustaram-me.

Estava sempre a temer que o homem que viesse depois de ti fosse tão mau como tu.

After it all ended, I didn’t want anyone else to take your place.

I didn’t want to have someone near me if that wasn’t you.

I was confused. I simply wasn’t able to comprehend what happened.

Nada disso parecia fazer sentido para mim.

Tudo parecia ser perfeito num momento, mas depois partiste-me o coração. Partiste-me.

E fiquei com um sentimento de insegurança, que ainda hoje tenho.

I thought that I wasn’t enough for you or that maybe I had rushed you into something you didn’t want.

Sometimes I even caught myself thinking that I wouldn’t ever find someone who would be able to love me like I deserve, like I loved you, selfless and pure, without any measure.

But now, after time healed my wounds and after I managed to patch my heart, I know that true love will find me, at the right time…

Por isso, obrigado. Obrigado por me deixares ir.

Aprendi a dizer adeus. Ensinaste-me a abrir as asas e a voar livremente de novo.

Guess what? The world didn’t stop with you leaving after all.

Há tantas coisas bonitas à espera que eu saia e as explore.

Há alguém que estará pronto para o meu amor.

Alguém que me vai mimar com o seu amor. Alguém que eu encorajarei a ser melhor a cada passo do caminho.

Há alguém com quem vou realizar os meus sonhos.

Someone who isn’t afraid to love or commit.

I know it’s my fault I gave you all the love you didn’t deserve.

Eu dei-te tudo de mim.

I am sorry because I didn’t know how to love any less than that… But you weren’t ready to love me the same way.

Se calhar esforcei-me demasiado.

Did I scare you with something I did? I know you didn’t fake all of that.

You can’t fake emotions as strong as that. You didn’t fake your love. So, what really happened?

This is a rhetorical question because I don’t want to know the answer.

I am afraid of it. I am afraid you’ll tell me that I rushed you into something serious.

I want to believe that you weren’t ready for a serious relationship, that you weren’t ready for the type of love I was giving you.

You weren’t ready for that ‘forever type of love’.

Anyway, it doesn’t matter anymore who was wrong and who was right. It doesn’t matter whether I chased you away or you were the running type.

O que importa é que aprendi alguma coisa com a nossa história.

I learned a thing or two about men and relationships. I learned to let go of the things that weren’t meant for me.

Mais importante ainda, aprendi a valorizar-me mais.

Abri os meus olhos para novas perspectivas e para uma nova vida que posso ter sem ti.

E tu?

Tornaste-te parte do meu passado e quero deixar-te lá. Estou pronto para o futuro.

Take care of yourself and goodbye… forever!