Carta al hombre que no estaba preparado para mi amor

After all this time, I’m still hoping.

I’m hoping that maybe one day you will explain why you left me.

I know it’s wrong. I should just leave you in the past and simply move on with my life.

But that’s not easy.

¿Cómo superar algo que creías que iba a durar para siempre?

¿Cómo se puede dejar atrás a alguien por quien se sentían sentimientos tan intensos y a quien se amaba con todo el corazón?

To be honest, I don’t know how many times I tried to write this letter and I couldn’t do it.

Mis emociones estaban a flor de piel.

Todavía te quería.

However, I was also angry because I couldn’t believe it was so easy for you to let me go. To let our love go.

Ahora, estoy enfadada conmigo misma por amar a alguien que nunca fue mío, que me dejó sin palabras.

Me sentí traicionado porque me mentiste.

How many times did you say that you would do anything for me, that there was nothing in this world you wouldn’t have done for me?

Lo único que tenías que hacer era amarme como yo te amaba. Y fallaste.

I felt sad. That’s it. I felt so profoundly sad.

No hay palabras suficientes para describir esa sensación.

Espero que entiendas lo que hiciste y las consecuencias que dejó en mí. Dejaste una marca innegable en mi corazón.

If you ever cared for me, you wouldn’t have made me feel like this.

I was afraid. I was actually worried about my mental health because I didn’t think I was strong enough to cope with you leaving.

Las cicatrices que dejaste me asustaron.

Seguía temiendo que el hombre que viniera después de ti fuera tan malo como tú.

After it all ended, I didn’t want anyone else to take your place.

I didn’t want to have someone near me if that wasn’t you.

I was confused. I simply wasn’t able to comprehend what happened.

Nada de eso parecía tener sentido para mí.

Todo parecía perfecto en un momento, pero entonces me rompiste el corazón. Me rompiste a mí.

Y me quedé con la sensación de inseguridad, que tengo incluso ahora.

I thought that I wasn’t enough for you or that maybe I had rushed you into something you didn’t want.

Sometimes I even caught myself thinking that I wouldn’t ever find someone who would be able to love me like I deserve, like I loved you, selfless and pure, without any measure.

But now, after time healed my wounds and after I managed to patch my heart, I know that true love will find me, at the right time…

Así que gracias. Gracias por dejarme ir.

Aprendí a decir adiós. Me enseñaste a desplegar las alas y a volar libre de nuevo.

Guess what? The world didn’t stop with you leaving after all.

Hay tantas cosas bonitas esperando a que salga a explorarlas.

Hay alguien que estará listo para mi amor.

Alguien que me mime con su amor. Alguien a quien animaré a ser mejor en cada paso del camino.

Hay alguien con quien cumpliré mis sueños.

Someone who isn’t afraid to love or commit.

I know it’s my fault I gave you all the love you didn’t deserve.

Te di todo de mí.

I am sorry because I didn’t know how to love any less than that… But you weren’t ready to love me the same way.

Tal vez presioné demasiado.

Did I scare you with something I did? I know you didn’t fake all of that.

You can’t fake emotions as strong as that. You didn’t fake your love. So, what really happened?

This is a rhetorical question because I don’t want to know the answer.

I am afraid of it. I am afraid you’ll tell me that I rushed you into something serious.

I want to believe that you weren’t ready for a serious relationship, that you weren’t ready for the type of love I was giving you.

You weren’t ready for that ‘forever type of love’.

Anyway, it doesn’t matter anymore who was wrong and who was right. It doesn’t matter whether I chased you away or you were the running type.

Lo que importa es que aprendí algo de nuestra historia.

I learned a thing or two about men and relationships. I learned to let go of the things that weren’t meant for me.

Y lo que es más importante, aprendí a valorarme más.

He abierto los ojos a nuevas perspectivas y a una nueva vida que puedo tener sin ti.

¿Y tú?

Te convertiste en parte de mi pasado y quiero dejarte ahí. Estoy preparado para el futuro.

Take care of yourself and goodbye… forever!