Uma carta para o homem que me fez sentir que sou impossível de amar

You left me with only one sentence that is still etched deep in my mind: “You are so hard to love.” Really, after everything that happened, you had the guts to tell me that I’m the unlovable one?

Dei demasiado e nunca pedi ou recebi nada em troca. That’s why it was a hell of a thing for you to make me feel like I’m the unlovable one. But I have to admit… You almost succeeded in convincing me.

Quase. Uma palavra tão importante para mim. Tu quase made me feel like I’m too hard to love. You quase quebrou a minha fé no amor verdadeiro.

Você quase fez-me duvidar do meu valor. Tu quase Conseguiste fazer tudo isso, mas no final falhaste porque eu era muito mais forte do que pensavas.

I know I never asked for much. I was never interested in material things or precious gifts. I never asked you to spend time with me 24/7. I wasn’t too needy, and I never tried to change you.

Aceitei-te tal como és. Aceitei-te por inteiro, todos os teus lados bons, tanto quanto os maus. Aceitei todos os teus defeitos. Infelizmente, apaixonei-me completamente por ti e por todas as tuas imperfeições.

No, I’m not trying to make myself out as a saint. I have flaws, and I also made mistakes. However, I was willing, and I was trying hard to change and be a better person for you… For us.

Só queria que me amasses da mesma forma que eu te amei

Eu só queria o tipo de amor com que sempre sonhei. Tu sabes, o de cortar a respiração, incondicionalum tipo de amor lindo, único na vida.

And no, don’t tell me that I asked for too much because I loved you that way. The only problem is that I wanted it from the wrong person. Estava à procura do amor certo com a pessoa errada.

Nada do que eu fiz foi suficiente para ti

Tentei e esforcei-me tanto para te provar que te amava sinceramente. Pensei que a culpa era minha por seres tão frio e distante em relação a mim.

Você nunca me apreciou, neither as a person nor as a girlfriend. You were aware that as much as you ignored my efforts, I’d continue to try to be a better girlfriend to you.

O meu erro foi idealizar-te

In my eyes, you were a perfect man. I would say that’s my biggest mistake. Pensar em ti como um homem perfeito e colocar-te num pedestal quando estavas tão longe de ser perfeito.

My other mistake was letting you inside my heart and, even worse, in my head. I allowed you to make me doubt myself, to decrease my value, and make me feel like I’m not worthy of being loved.

No fim de contas, sinto que devo agradecer-vos

Yes, you did leave me with many insecurities. I was convinced that I was unworthy of love. You said that love isn’t meant for everyone, and I was trying to come to terms with that.

I thought that God had forgotten me when it comes to love…

Mas, sabes que mais? Todas essas inseguranças fizeram de mim a mulher que sou hoje: uma mulher confiante, corajosa, independente e mulher forte.

I’m a woman who knows what she wants from life and who won’t allow anyone to take the wheel of her life because only she should steer it.

Além disso, tenho pena de ti

You tried to make me feel that I was the one who is hard to love when actually, you’re the one who is impossible to love.

Trancaste o teu coração e construíste um muro enorme, uma fortaleza à volta dele, para que ninguém se possa aproximar.

Maybe, you did it out of fear because you don’t want anyone to hurt you and break your heart.

But, I think that the real reason you did it is that you’re weak.

You’re a coward who cannot confront his own feelings and thinks that it’s better to run away from things than to accept the risk those things bring with them.

That’s why I can’t be angry at you or hate you anymore. I honestly feel sorry for you, a weak man who’ll forever be alone, sad, and lonely.

I’m still alone, but I’ll never be lonely. You see, you didn’t manage to convince me I’m unlovable after all.

Há tantas pessoas na minha vida que me amam por aquilo que sou, que amam todas as minhas imperfeições e defeitos e que me amam por todas as razões certas.

That’s why even though I’m alone, I’ll never be lonely.

Today I’m the happiest woman alive because I finally got closure with this letter and realized something very important: I’m worthy of the purest and most beautiful kind of love and belonging.