Nunca a amaste, só eras bom a fingir que a amavas

Quando esta rapariga o conheceu, pensou que você era tudo o que ela procurava num homem.

Depois de todos esses fracassos, depois de todos esses homens tóxicos and unhealthy relationships, there you were—her reward for all the suffering she’d been through, her perfect man.

When she first met you, you acted like the guy of every girl’s dreams. A man she could count on; a man who would be her rock and the wind to her wings.

Um homem que lhe dê as borboletas que ela deseja, mas também a segurança de que precisa.

A melhor parte era que a amava de volta. Ou pelo menos, agias como se amasses.

You kept mentioning your future together, convincing her that she was the only woman you could see yourself growing old next to. Convincing her that you could never imagine yourself kissing another woman, let alone waking up next to someone who wasn’t her.

What else could a girl wish for? Well, I’ll tell you what—an honest guy who doesn’t act like he is something he is not. A guy who isn’t actually a narcissistic asshole who wears the mask of this perfect man just to get inside her heart, so he can break it later on.

However, this is exactly what you turned out to be—a man who never loved her for real. A man who just pretended to love her while you actually couldn’t care less about her.

Um homem que fazia jogos com ela. Um homem que a manipulou para que acreditasse que os seus sentimentos por ela eram honestos.

Tu és o homem que a magoou mais do que qualquer outro na vida dela. Um homem que a abandonou quando ela pensava que tudo na sua vida tinha finalmente caído no seu lugar, quando ela pensava que tudo estava em perfeita ordem.

Uma manhã, sem mais nem menos, saíste da vida dela. Viraste-lhe as costas e nunca mais voltaste.

Just like that, you crushed all of her dreams and hopes, and proved to her that you were just like all of her exes—that you just wanted to take advantage of her kind heart, that you just wanted to use her and that you were only leading her on.

Portanto, não, nunca a amaste because you don’t break the hearts of the ones you love. You don’t promise them the paradise, just to make their life a living hell.

You don’t make them believe that they’ve reached the stars just so you could knock them off of their feet.

You don’t go around convincing them that you are a dream come true when you are nothing more than a real life nightmare. You don’t leave them hanging when they need you the most, without caring how they will survive.

You don’t make them suffer, and you don’t turn your back on them without a reason, proving to them that they never matter to you.

When you love someone, you don’t move on with your life, leaving them in the past, as if they never existed. You don’t forget about them overnight, and you don’t leave them wondering if everything between the two of you was nothing more than a big, fat lie.

You don’t use their emotions to boost your broken ego and you most certainly don’t deceive them just to reach your goals.

No entanto, foi exatamente isso que fez a esta rapariga. Trataste o seu coração vulnerável como um brinquedo e deitaste-o fora como um pedaço de lixo quando acabaste de o usar.

Nevertheless, you didn’t complete your mission because guess what—you didn’t break her, as much as you wanted to.

Yes, the truth is that she is devastated now. The truth is that she’s been spending sleepless nights, wondering if any of the things you told her were true.

That she keeps on blaming herself for being such a fool who believed your empty promises and for falling for your mind games. That she can’t believe how come she failed to see your true colors in time and how she could have allowed you to deceive her like that.

A verdade é que ela está magoada com o facto de ter desperdiçado anos da sua vida numa mentira que nunca foi real, num homem que nunca conheceu e num homem que nunca existiu.

However, all of this doesn’t mean that she won’t survive. Because one of these days, she will rise from the ashes of her crushed heart.

One morning, she will wake up and she will realize that you don’t deserve to have a place in her life and her heart anymore. That you were never good for anything besides pretending and that she is way better off without you.

Que tudo isto não passava de uma lição dolorosa o que a ajudou a tornar-se mais forte.

One of these days, she will be happy again. And you? You will always remain the same piece of shit you’ve always been.