Uma carta para o homem que me traiu

Querido "amor da minha vida",

Estou a escrever esta carta por um grande número de razões. Em primeiro lugar, estou a escrevê-la porque quero finalmente libertar-me desta dor que está dentro de mim.

Secondly, I am writing it because I want you to have a piece of paper that will be a reminder of all that nasty things you did to me—and we both know that there were many of them.

Sabes, sempre sonhei que me casaria com um único homem e que isso vai ser para sempre. I thought to myself that I will experience the kind of love that feels like home—pure, innocent and lovely.

Eu tinha planos para as nossas vidas. Imaginava os nossos filhos a correr pela casa enquanto tu andavas atrás deles.

I imagined our Christmases spent together while we are watching movies under the blanket and drinking hot chocolate. You know, I dreamed about a lot of things—beautiful ones.

Mas um dia, de repente, descobri que enganaste-me. Ainda me lembro do dia em que chegaste a casa e admitiste que havia outra pessoa na tua vida.

Alguém que faz o teu coração bater mais depressa. Alguém que te faz parar de respirar por um segundo. Alguém que representa a realização de todos os teus sonhos.

And it was too bad that woman wasn’t me. After you told me everything about her, I thought that you were kidding with me. I thought that you just wanted to see my reaction. But you were dead serious.

E pelo olhar nos teus olhos, percebi que estava tudo acabado. Tudo o que tínhamos estado a construir durante todos estes anos tinha acabado. Todos os sonhos, todas as esperanças, todas as aspirações. Foi tudo em vão.

E eu?

I just stood there, completely broken, staring at the wall in front of me. I was trying to say something but there wasn’t anything clever coming out of my mouth.

So, I just left. I packed my bags without a word and I left you. I felt like an injured wolf who needs to be alone to heal his wounds. My ego was shaken. My whole world was falling apart and I didn’t have any common sense.

Nesse dia, passei tanto tempo a pensar em ti e na nossa vida juntos. Estava tão zangada contigo porque escolheste-a em vez de mim. Só espero que ela valha a pena.

I hope she is worth all my pain and my tears. And I hope that you will be able to develop a normal and stable relationship with her. Maybe you didn’t love me enough.

Maybe our relationship already died but we weren’t aware of that fact. Maybe we let our happiness slip away. And just maybe we didn’t put enough effort into our story.

When I look back, I don’t regret anything. I am a strong woman and I can deal with my pain. Honestly, é muito melhor que me tenhas deixado, but I would prefer that you hadn’t cheated on me.

I think I deserved that after all those years we spent together. Unfortunately, you did it on your own. You were selfish and you weren’t thinking about me. What else could I have expected from a man like you?

You broke me and you didn’t even ask me if I needed any help. We could have talked about it like adults. You could have been sincere with me.

You could have told me that you don’t feel anything for me and that you want to be with someone else. But you didn’t. And that is breaking my heart.

You didn’t just cheat on me, you cheated on us. You didn’t just break my heart, you broke our future. And that is something I will never forgive you.

And in the end, I have a message for you: “You can continue cheating yourself, but ME, never again!”