Isto é para uma jovem esposa de uma amante de longa data
I never wanted to take him away from you. He came to me, all broken and tired, asking for some love. So, I gave him a shelter in my heart and my bed. I made all his bad dreams go away. He was so happy when he was with me but I saw in his eyes that he was not completely satisfied. I knew he was thinking about you all the time. About the pain he was doing to you. But at the same time, he didn’ want to stop. I don’t know why he is cheating you with me. Maybe I have something that he misses about you. Maybe that is the one piece of the puzzle he needs to be completely happy. And he found it in me.
I want you to know I didn’t quer ser o SEGUNDO. I wanted to be the one and only but life didn’t give me that opportunity. So, I accept every invitation to be someone’s first choice even for one night. Because being the second one hurts me a lot.
Quero que saibas que também tenho sentimentos.
I am not a cold-blooded bitch like you think. I felt frustrated when he couldn’t come because you were having your friends over. I was upset every time he canceled our meeting because the two of you had an emergency.
Depois, tirava as cuecas de renda e apagava as velas. Fazia tudo isso em silêncio.
In those moments, I became aware of the fact that I am the second one. Probably, I will always be in that position because I don’t know how to be monogamous. It is in my genes and I can’t do anything about it. A leopard can’t change its spots.
I am trying to fall in love with one man only but after some time I realize he is not the one I need. I start hating him for the things he does and the ones he doesn’t do as well. And I can’t get away of that circle because I am not doing anything to escape.
Gostaria muito de mudar e espero conseguir fazê-lo um dia. Mas até lá, provavelmente dormirei com todos os homens que me prestarem atenção. Que triste, não é?
Sabes, o teu homem não era o único que traía a mulher comigo. Muitos homens passaram pela minha vida e todos eles ficaram com cicatrizes emocionais.
Frankly speaking, I don’t know why guys cheat.
Não são uns machões que saltam de uma cama para outra, mas sim maridos dedicados e pais amorosos. Há alguma razão, desconhecida para mim, que os faz vender o seu verdadeiro amor por uma aventura de uma noite.
But no matter how exciting it is to be a forbidden fruit, in the end, I get sick and tired of being the second one. Because every man in the end, chooses his wife, the mother of his kids and I always stay alone. They don’t care about my feelings and my needs since they were with me just to please theirs.
Por isso, só quero que saibas uma coisa: se alguma vez descobrires que ele te anda a trair, trata-o da mesma forma que ele te tratou a ti. Ele vai acordar e vai perceber que tipo de tesouro perdeu só porque estava a pensar com a pila em vez de pensar com a cabeça.
E eu?
Eu vou ultrapassar isto sozinha. Sou suficientemente forte para suportar toda a dor e as lágrimas depois de ele me deixar para te ir consolar. Não é a minha primeira vez e já me habituei a estas bofetadas que a vida me dá.
Hei-de encontrar uma maneira de sair deste inferno. E as coisas vão melhorar para mim.
They have to be…
O quebrado
