5 cosas que pasan cuando por fin superas una relación rota

Ni siquiera eres consciente de la suerte que tienes de poder dejar una relación rota. Toda tu felicidad está tapada por el dolor y la ruptura que sientes ahora. Pero eso pasará, ¿sabes?

It’s just the feeling of loneliness that is overwhelming you, the change that happened. You were in a relationship for some time and you didn’t even realize that you were unhappy.

Seguías pensando que las cosas cambiarían, pero su indiferencia y su egoísmo no hacían más que hundirte aún más en la tristeza que ocupaba tu corazón y tu mente.

Estos hombres tóxicos te atraen a su trampa y te mantienen en sus garras, alimentándose de tu energía, hasta que un día no queda más energía en ti. Hasta que un día te quedes seca, hasta que te rindas y abandones a él, a tu relación.

You were abused emotionally, you were yelled at, and you were told that you were incompetent and stupid. God knows how many disgusting things you heard but chose to forget. Although we both know that you will never erase those moments from your mind, you’ll try to push them deep to the back of your mind.

Un día, te alejas. Te alejas de sus abusos, gritos e intimidaciones y te sientes como una mierda. Pensabas que ibas a liberarte y volver a sentirte positiva y feliz. Pero las cosas sólo parecen empeorar, así que empiezas a le echo de menos y muy pronto vuelves con él, esperando que esta vez las cosas sean diferentes.

You’re hoping that he’ll turn things around because he has realized how miserable he is without you. And indeed, you really see that new side of him in the first few days. He’s attentive, loving and caring up until the first disagreement, up until the first time you stand up for yourself.

He doesn’t like that. He doesn’t want a strong and independent woman by his side. He wants a poor and chica débil who will do exactly as she is told, a girl who doesn’t fight back and that’s not you.

Then suddenly, you’ve been shifted to your abusive reality. Something woke you up from a beautiful dreamland you were in and showed you, once again, who he really is.

I know what you’re going through. I know that once again you’ve left and you feel tempted to go back because you’re scared to be alone, or you think he’s going to change, or you think you still love him so you want to give him another shot.

Stop! Nothing is going to change. He’s going to stay the same abusive and self-centered gilipollas and you’re still going to be his victim to lash out on whenever he feels like it.

You’ll be lost when you break it off for good. You’re going to feel unwanted and you’re going to be miserable for some time.

But you have to let those tears out otherwise you’ll choke on them. You have to scream to release all your anger and not to bottle it up inside you because it will destroy you, it will beat you to an emotional death.

Pero una vez que te quitas todo lo malo de encima, una vez que aceptas tu nuevo estatus y tu nuevo papel en la vida, las cosas van a empezar a cambiar a la velocidad de la luz. Ya sabes que después de llover, siempre sale el sol.

Hay que tocar fondo para volver a levantarse.

1. You’ll learn to love yourself

You’re not going to see yourself in the same way anymore. You’ve learned your lesson and it has changed you. Maybe not even changed you as much as it showed you which path you must never take anymore, what lies and manipulations you should never believe in again.

You’re going to learn to respect yourself because you’ve been treated like shit for such a long time. You’ll see what you’ve been missing out on, how much love you deserved and never got.

You’re going to stop underestimating yourself and embrace yourself because you are the best version of yourself, you just bumped into the wrong man for you.

2. You’ll gradually forgive yourself

It’s not going to happen so soon. You’ll resent yourself and hate yourself for being so stupid to trust him.

You’re going to be angry because you let yourself fall in love with a manipulador disfrazado y te creíste sus mentiras y sus palabras vacías.

But sadly, love is really blind and when you love someone, even if you know deep in your heart that he is not the man for you, you refuse to believe it because you’re crazy in love and the thing between the two of you has to work, it just has to.

3. Aceptas lo ocurrido

When you break free from a toxic relationship, you’re confused and you feel alone. It’s only then that you start to realize that you’ve been mistreated and emotionally abused.

Only once you get away from him, do you go over things and realize how miserable you’ve been and didn’t want to admit it. You were constantly hoping for a change, you thought it was just a ‘phase’.

But when you move away and lock him out of your life for good, you’re able to think straight and see things for what they really are. There is no one there to change the truth and manipulate you into thinking that you’re happy and that things should work this way, that you are the problem and not him. So you slowly accept it.

It’s too much to accept all of a sudden. You allow yourself to take a leap into this realization and do it step by step, so you don’t break down. When you finally understand how things happened and why, and accept everything, you will find peace and you will move on.

4. Acepta el dolor

It’s your pain, it’s a part of you. It’s a feeling that comes from your heart and even if it sucks, you have to embrace it. You have to learn to accept that you’re hurting and you will be hurting for some time.

Querías a alguien, probablemente aún sientes algo por él y te ha utilizado y manipulado. Tu corazón está herido y sangra mucho.

But, in time, that wound is going to get smaller, it’s going to bleed less, until one day it finally stops. You’re never be going to feel the same again, because you’ll always have a constant reminder, a huge scar on your heart, of what happened and how it hurt.

But it’s your pain, it comes from you and you have to take it and learn to overcome it.

5. Aprendes a apreciar las pequeñas cosas

After the emotional chaos you’ve lived through, there is a period of complete and utter peace. A period where you find yourself again, where you learn to love the same things you loved before him, when you slowly return a shy but significant smile to your face, a time when you redescúbrete a ti mismo.

It’s like learning to walk or talk again. It takes time but it’s somewhere deep inside you. It’s not forgotten, it’s just misplaced.

Empieza con cosas pequeñas. Sales a pasear un bonito día soleado, tú solo, disfrutas del sol, del olor a hierba recién cortada. Observas a la gente que pasa a tu lado y probablemente te preguntas qué les pasa por la cabeza. ¿Alguno de ellos habrá pasado por lo mismo que tú?

Are they happy? What troubles them? And then you look inside yourself once again and you feel peace, you feel that all those small, insignificant things such as the sun, a walk or a stranger’s smile, are bringing your old self back. Easily, step by step.