Sólo llama porque está borracho y solo.

No cojas el teléfono.

It’s the call you’ve been waiting for, isn’t it? It’s the sound you have heard ringing in your sleep for so many nights.

It’s your first look at your phone and the hope it’s his number—calling to apologize, to tell you he loves you and wants you back.

It’s him and all you’ve been waiting for and you’re fingers are itching to pick up, aren’t they?

Pero, antes de cogerlo, hay algo que debes tener en cuenta.

¿Cuántas veces te ha hecho esto?

You’ve tried to move on so many times, but somehow he always gets in your way. Either he calls, texts, shows up, or you hear his name in your head and you drop everything.

You drop everything waiting for him to spread his arms and welcome you in his hugs, but it isn’t really happening how you’ve pictured it.

Puede hacerte sentir como nadie.

Because you gave him that much power. You’ve allowed him to become so important and you can’t help but want him.

Pero si te dieras una semana para pensar en él sin que tus sentimientos nublaran tu juicio, las cosas cristalizarían un poco.

You’d see he isn’t as special as you thought. He isn’t even average, but you made him perfect and #1. That’s what you do—you give people much more credit than they deserve.

Ver también: Te mereces que te traten como a una mierda

Pero sigues olvidando lo jugador que es.

See, whenever he rings you up, you’re the first to show up. You’re like those duty officers that are first to arrive at the crime scene.

But, honestly and harshly, that’s all you’ll ever be. There is no higher position for you in his police station.

Don’t let him in.

He is not calling because he’s taking you seriously this time. He’s not calling because he knows you’re worthy. He’s not calling because he wants you to get back together.

Te llama porque te necesita como un parásito necesita otra vida de la que alimentarse. Necesita que le cuides, que le quieras y que te preocupes por él. Necesita tu amor, tu generosidad y tus ojos cálidos.

He needs to not be alone now when everybody else has left him. He’s calling because he’s drunk and he’s alone. It’s the same story all over again.

You shouldn’t be flattered by the guy who calls you only when he’s drunk. No, it doesn’t mean he loves you.

It means he just needs you, and you’re the only person he knows who will pick up the phone.

Instead, you should be flattered with a grown-ass man who’s not afraid to call you when he’s sober, treat you right, and darte el amor que mereces.

You’re constantly preventing yourself from getting over him.

Cada vez que te llama, el corazón te da un vuelco. Cada vez que ves su nombre en la pantalla, te entran ganas de gritar de alegría.

He doesn’t deserve it. Remember how many nights you have spent dry-heaving out of desire for him?

¿Cuántas veces te has tumbado en el suelo deseando que desapareciera el dolor y no haberle conocido? ¿Cuántas veces has querido borrarle de tu memoria?

Y, sin embargo, basta una llamada suya para que olvides todo el dolor y todas las lágrimas de vida que dejaste caer por él.

Alguien tiene que decirte que la práctica hace al maestro.

Puede que ahora te mate no cogerlo, pero más adelante sólo será un nombre al azar en la pantalla.

I promise he won’t know you wanted and waited for him to call. He won’t know how much you miss him. Nobody will ever tell him how much you’re hurting.

But he’ll think you’re doing just fine without him and that there is no place for him in your life. Eventually, it will be so. He doesn’t need to know it’s different now.

Después, he’ll realize what has he lost. He’ll be aware that he treated you the way nobody should ever be treated and he’ll regret all the times he ignored you, manipulated you, and made you feel bad about yourself.

He’ll keep calling the only person who loved him for who he was, but you’ll just let it ring.

Because, sooner or later, there will be somebody who’ll treat you better than him.

There will be somebody who’ll give you the love you deserve—and it’s not him.

He doesn’t deserve to hear your voice.