La verdadera historia de la chica que se enamora fácilmente
Falling in love is like an instinct to her, something she was born with. It’s not something she chooses, it’s something that comes naturally to her, like with breathing air. She lets emotions surround her and she breathes in love.
She is the one who falls too strong, too hard and too fast. She feels lucky to be alive after all those heartbreaks she has been through. She doesn’t know where she gets her strength from but she never gives up on the idea of true love.
It is a difficult thing, giving your heart so easily. It’s not something she wants, it’s something she simply does. It gives people more chance to destroy her, to take advantage of that pure soul she possesses. No tiene malas intenciones, so she can’t possibly grasp that other people might have them.
La gente a menudo la mira con sus ojos juzgadores, tachándola de desesperada por el amor, llamándola y diciéndole que está forzando las cosas y que debería esperar a algo real, que no todos los amores son el amor de su vida.
Lo que no entienden es que ella lo sabe. Sabe que no todos los hombres que le llaman la atención son los indicados. Ella espera que los que realmente llegan a su corazón lo sean.
So she gives them a chance. She crosses her fingers and hopes that this one is the real deal. That she no longer needs to be a part of that emotional roller-coaster she’s been through her entire love life.
Lo sabe todo y arriesga su corazón una y otra vez por amor. Tiene miedo de que le rompan el corazón, pero lo que la asusta aún más es no darle ninguna oportunidad a ese corazón.
Tiene miedo de perderse el amor. Tiene miedo de renunciar demasiado pronto a algo que podría ser real. Así que lo intenta y da lo mejor de sí misma. Antepone la felicidad de su amado a la suya propia. Le hace ver lo importante y asombroso que es.
El inconveniente es que, al amarle, olvida su propia importancia. Se olvida lo valiosa que es. She forgets that she has a life that doesn’t involve him. She forgets her future plans and goals. She postpones her dreams so he can chase his.
That’s where she fails every time.
She doesn’t realize that she is in love ‘with estar enamorado’. She is hooked on that feeling. It consumes her and it controls her. So she always gives more emphasis to the feeling than to the person.
She doesn’t pay attention to getting the love back. She doesn’t see that her efforts and investments aren’t reciprocated. She doesn’t see that she is giving her best for somebody who is failing her in every aspect. Someone who wouldn’t lift a finger for her.
She knows it’s time to change.
She knows that she has to stop repeating the pattern. That she has to stop choosing to give her heart to the wrong man. She has to stop loving those who don’t deserve her so easily.
She knows that she needs to take a good look at the person she is falling in love with. She knows that expecting all that she is giving in return is not selfish—it’s normal and necessary.
Sabe que tiene que darse más amor a sí misma. Tiene que dejar de descuidarse y posponer sus sueños. Tiene que encontrar la manera de vivir la vida que se merece.
Tiene que ponerse a sí misma en primer lugar, para que ese sentimiento fuera de lugar pueda encontrar el camino correcto.
Lo sabe todo en teoría, pero a la hora de la verdad, it’s really hard giving up the old habits. It’s hard when that feeling of being in love is like an addiction to her and she is aware that she needs to change, that she needs rehab.
Somehow, she also knows she will make it. She knows because she realized that she should fall in love with herself first, as easy as she has fallen for those who weren’t worthy of her.
Lo que necesita aún más es paciencia. Paciencia para aprender a quererse a sí misma y convertirse en una versión mejor. La versión que sabe que tiene pero que se le escapó de alguna manera.
Paciencia para darse cuenta de que quiere estar para siempre con alguien. Paciencia para esperarlo. Paciencia porque ella puede apresurarlo todo pero nunca puede apresurarse para siempre.
