Qué se siente cuando tu casi amor elige a otra persona

'¿Qué ha cambiado?' es el pensamiento que resuena en tu mente y no puedes acallar. Hace sólo unos meses, no estaba preparado para una relación.

He didn’t want to hear the word commitment, let alone fully be in one.

However, he is ready now. He is ready for it all with her, like he never was with you and it’s making you nauseous just thinking about it. It just doesn’t make any sense.

Quieres una explicación. Intentas entenderlo todo, pero siempre fracasas.

The questions keep multiplying but the answers are what’s missing and you seem unable to find them.

You feel like you have been doubled-crossed and it’s making you mad.

You spent so much time with him, giving him all the boyfriend benefits and never once did you hear him call you his girlfriend. He wasn’t en etiquetas , he just wasn’t that type.

De repente, no tiene problemas con las etiquetas. No tiene problema en publicar fotos con ella en las redes sociales. No tiene problema en cogerla de la mano y gritar que es suya.

You don’t know what to do or how to behave.

Sientes que deberías llamarle y desahogar tu rabia y decepción. Pero algo te lo impide. Nunca has sido oficialmente nada. No tienes derecho a reprochárselo.

Quieres enviarle un largo mensaje, exigiéndole una explicación, diciéndole lo mal que te sientes y lo mucho que te duele esta situación. Pero antes de darle al botón de enviar, cambias de opinión.

He doesn’t deserve to know how much damage his behavior has caused. He doesn’t need to know that he has the power to hurt you that much.

Recuerdas todos los momentos importantes que pasaste con él.

The memories just don’t leave you be. You have this vivid picture in your mind of every time you were close, of every nice thing he did, of every kiss and every hug and you are making things worse on yourself.

You go even further and analyze his texts and every word he ever mumbled. It’s like you are in self-destruct mode and you have no power to put a stop to it.

Intentas encontrar sentido donde no lo hay.

What does she have that you don’t? What is it inside of her that made him change his mind? What made him want a real relationship with her when he wanted something casual with you?

You were there for him. You did everything right. You didn’t suffocate him, you gave him space, you were never pegajoso and he still chose her over you. It just doesn’t make sense.

Sientes que ella ocupó tu lugar.

Te sientes como si te hubieran robado. Después de todo el tiempo que pasaste con él, tú eras a quien debería haberse llevado de vacaciones, tú deberías haber sido la que sonríe mientras te besa la mejilla en esa foto.

You feel like the life you were entitled to was taken away from right under your nose and you can’t do anything about it. You feel powerless and deprived. Sadness consumes you.

Finalmente, llega ese momento de claridad.

You realize that it couldn’t be you. Your place was never beside him because he never made room for you. He always held you at arm’s length.

Siempre te dio migajas, pero nunca todo. Nunca dijo que tendríais una relación de verdad. Sólo se apuntó a casi. Sólo quería un pequeño papel en tu vida y nunca un papel principal.

Sabes que esto tenía que pasar y que no tenía nada que ver contigo.

You don’t blame him. You don’t blame that other woman. Lastly, you don’t blame yourself either. Things happened because you let them happen. He was something you needed.

He was someone you needed in that chapter of your life. But it’s time now to write some new ones. He made you see that you were never an almost relationship type of girl.

Te hizo darte cuenta de que necesitas más. Que necesitas a alguien que esté seguro de querer estar contigo.

Alguien que te tome de la mano y te lleve a su vida sin que tengas que pedírselo.

Hay claridad y paz en tu vida que necesitabas desde hace tanto tiempo.

You didn’t even realize how that unsteady relationship you had with him was bad for you. You never knew where you stood.

Estabas agobiado.

Usted sigue esperando para que las cosas fueran más reales. Querías más. No tenías paz y la felicidad era una noción que cambiaba debido a los días buenos y malos que pasabas con él.

You are calm at last. The hoping has stopped. You know that you were never meant to be. You know he wasn’t right for you.

You know that it’s up to you to create your happiness. Now you know that next time you enter into a relationship, it will be real and never again almost.