Lo siento, pero ya no me mereces

Mi amor,

I’m one foot out the door and I already know I’m going to miss you. I’m going to miss everything good we had and I’m going to miss having your love.

I’m even gonna miss loving you, feeling your warmth on a daily basis and I’m going to miss how my hand fits perfectly in yours.

But I made my decision and even if you tried to stop me, I’m not sure you could.

It’s not that I don’t love you anymore, my emotions were always pure. What makes it even worse is that I think I’ll love you for as long as I am alive.

You’ll always have a spot in my heart and I think your name will forever remain somewhere in the back of my mind.

Unfortunately, I’m not so sure you’ll ever have a spot in my life again.

Despite my feelings, this, what we have, is something I have to end. I just can’t do this anymore.

I can’t be the one to always forgive, I can’t be the only one who’s constantly trying to understand you and to see things from your perspective.

I can’t keep finding excuses for your bad behavior and I can’t be the only one dragging us forward.

I kept trying and trying, and whenever I felt bad about something that happened between us I’d sleep on it and it would be better in the morning.

I’d force myself to believe in whatever excuses you made and I forced myself to believe that things would change, that you’d finally realize what you were doing to me, how much you were hurting me.

I believed that at some point you’d think about me and you’d put my needs before the needs of others. But what I hoped for never came to life.

Me esforcé tanto por ser tan bueno para ti. Me esforcé tanto para hacerte feliz, para que funcionáramos.

Reprimí mis sentimientos porque no quería abrumarte con mis emociones.

Quería ser fuerte por los dos, pero en algún momento me cansé. Me cansé de darte mi amor y no recibir nada a cambio.

Me perdí en este amor que sentía por ti y me olvidé de cuidarme. Yo seguía dando y tú seguías tomándolo todo sin darme nunca nada a cambio.

The feeling that you were with me just so you wouldn’t be alone, the feeling that you were with me just so you could have someone, never left me.

Everything you did seemed to me like it was programmed. Because whenever I pulled back after you hurt me, you’d reach for me and show me how it felt to be loved by you.

Pero sólo tuve esos momentos en los que sabías que habías hecho algo mal. Fuiste selectivo con tu amor y yo fui la que fue a por todas desde el principio.

Maybe that was my mistake. Maybe not holding back but giving you everything I had before you actually deserved it was the thing that made you think I’d do anything for you, that I’d never leave you.

But there was not much I could do about that, as it’s just the way I am.

When I love, I love wholeheartedly. But I’m also a girl who can walk away without ever looking back once she realizes that someone doesn’t deserve me.

Y once you’ve lost me, I’m gone forever.

Truth be told, saying ‘no’ to you was always hard for me. I somehow had no issue with saying ‘yes’ and that’s why my behavior might surprise you now.

Esto es algo que nunca te he enseñado, pero ahora creo que ha llegado el momento de enseñártelo tl otro lado de mi amor.

It’s time to show you how much I respect myself. And I respect myself enough to know when it’s time to give up y marcharse.

It’s time to say ‘no’ to love and it’s time for me to take care of myself and my heart because you’re obviously not willing to do that.

He decidido dirigir todos los esfuerzos que puse en nosotros dos sólo hacia mí ahora. Sólo me queda el orgullo porque lo has reducido todo a cenizas.

We were together but you never made me feel yours, not even from the start. And now it’s time to admit the harsh truth and to walk away.

I don’t mean as much to you as you mean to me. Staying would mean giving up on myself and I’m sorry, but it’s time for me to stop being so selfless and to start thinking what it is that I need.

I need to guard my heart because you’re the man I can’t picture my life without and I’m not half as important to you.

Nunca me diste ni la mitad del amor que yo te di.

Nunca me mostraste tu aprecio, nunca tuve el tiempo que quería de ti, sólo el que creías que merecía, y nunca valoraste las cosas que hacía por ti.

Nunca pensaste cómo me afectarían tus acciones y nunca te paraste un segundo a mirarme y preguntarte a quién tenías al lado.

But I’ve figured out who I have next to me – a man who doesn’t deserve my time, my love or my efforts anymore.

Un hombre al que le di todo de mí y no recibí nada a cambio.

So, my darling, I’m sorry, but as far as I’m concerned, nuestra historia ha terminado.

Mucha suerte,

La chica que se esforzó tanto