Por favor, no seas como los demás

Puede que tus palabras no sean todo mentira y que pienses realmente lo que dices.

Puede que realmente quieras cumplir tus promesas, pero tristemente, I can’t trust you that easily. I’ve had my fair share of life lessons to be that naive again.

Ya me han mentido demasiadas veces. Mi confianza se rompió mis emociones tropezaron. Di el beneficio de la duda a demasiadas personas equivocadas.

I was always played and treated like a fool, even when I had the purest intentions. That’s why I don’t need your empty words, I need consistency.

I stopped believing in people’s words that easily. You are what you do, not what you say you’ll do. So whenever I hear a promise, I take it with a dose of doubt. I have to.

That’s how I guard my heart. That’s how I am keeping it safe from harm.

If people live up to their promises, I have something to be happy for. If not, at least I won’t get disappointed because I wasn’t looking forward to anything, to begin with.

Dejé de confiar en la gente tan fácilmente. You may be good, but you may be toxic as well. And I’m not ready to gamble with my heart anymore.

I don’t want to welcome people just because they seem good or nice. That was the old me and the old me was hurt so many times in the past.

Now that life has given me so many lessons, I’m way smarter. And therefore you’ll need to know that you’re trustworthy before I let you in.

Unfortunately, I was broken one too many times and I’m not as strong as I used to be.

Antes, no tenía problema en recomponerme, pieza por pieza... y seguir adelante. I can’t handle toxic people anymore. I am exhausted.

Because of everything I’ve been through I started doubting myself.

Sigo pensando que debe haber algo mal, que debo estar haciendo algo mal para que la gente me trate tan mal. Debo ser yo, ¿verdad?

Me niego a permitir que otra persona tóxica saque lo mejor de mí.

I am scared. I don’t want to relive my history. Even if you have nothing but good intentions, I can’t risk it.

I’m not sure this time I’d be able to get back up on my feet if you turned out to be like every other man before you.

Sería peor para mí.

I wouldn’t be able to convince myself that it wasn’t my fault, I couldn’t tell myself that it wasn’t me who makes people mean, I couldn’t convince myself that people are who they are and that it’s never really up to me.

It’s my task to take care of my self. If you’re worthy, you’ll prove it to me by being patient.

You will show me that I can trust you. You’ll be persistent and you won’t give up on me so easily. You’ll be there for me. I won’t need to risk my sanity because of you.

And if you truly are a good guy, you’ll try to understand. You’ll try to put yourself in my shoes and understand why I am the way I am.

You’ll figure out how this sensitive and kind-hearted girl turned into this closed and guarded one.

Ask me anything and I’ll tell you, but please don’t expect me to trust you, just because I have no reason not to. I’ve done that mistake countless times.

You’ll see doubt in my eyes.

It won’t be easy to shake that doubt off because I still have my past clinging to me.

Todavía tengo en algún lugar de mi mente todos los recuerdos de personas que me utilizaron, me mintieron y jugaron conmigo.

Y aunque no te lo merezcas, todos esos miedos reprimidos me llegan como olas que me recuerdan que no confíe en ti.

Do you think I wouldn’t love to be free of these scars that are making me lack faith in you? Do you think I am hard on you just because I feel like it?

Of course not. I just can’t help myself.

But give us a chance. let’s work on it together. It won’t be easy, I know that.

But if you put enough effort into it if you prove to me you won’t mess with my feelings, I promise you, it will be so worth it.

Please, don’t turn out to be like everyone else.

Don’t be like those I had the chance to encounter in my life before you came along. Don’t just talk—show me. Prove to me you’re worthy of my love and my trust.

Show me I can lean on you and that I can count on you. Prove to me you’re not going anywhere and that you won’t leave me broken.

Necesito coherencia, necesito ver el patrón de tus esfuerzos, de tu amor, de tu bondad y tu cariño. Puedes convencerme de que confíe en ti, pero no con palabras, nunca más con palabras.

Don’t tell me you’re different, show me.