Por favor, no dejes que te aleje

Esta es una carta dirigida a the person who I see is making an effort and this is a letter for the person I just don’t know how to keep.

I’m so sorry, I know you’re trying your best and I know you’re busting your ass just to see a little sign coming from me and each time you leave, you leave disappointed more and more.

Tú sigues intentándolo y yo sigo alejándote. Sigues evocando mis emociones y yo sigo respondiendo con la cara en blanco.

The truth is, I don’t know what to do with you. The ugly truth is I know you’re a good person and I’d hate to mess you up. And I will because that’s what I do.

Me cuesta amar desde que amé y acabé rota. Desde entonces, si amo, lo hago en silencio. Me protejo con toda la fuerza que llevo dentro.

That’s why you haven’t seen me respond to any of your emotions, that’s why I keep remaining blank-faced.

What you don’t know is that I’m everything but indifferent towards you. I want to let you in, I just don’t know how.

Please, don’t let my past push you away. Don’t let what I’ve been through scare you away.

Yes, I’m like this because of what previously happened to me, but I’d love to believe that not everybody is the same.

I’d love to think that there are good men out there who’ll fight for the people they love. If you love me, fight for me.

Please, don’t let my doubts push you away. Don’t get scared of my questions, don’t let me terrify you with all the interrogation I subject you to. 

I just doubt everything there is and it takes time for me to get used to good people. There were too many bad ones and I just can’t go with the flow.

Si me dejo llevar por el agua una vez más, podría acabar cayendo por una cascada demasiado alta. Si me amas de verdad, haz que desaparezcan mis dudas.

Please, don’t let my fear push you away. Necesito que seas valiente. Necesito que no me dejes ir. I need you to be confident and I know it’s hard when all I’m doing is projecting my insecurities on you.

I know I’ve said ‘no’ to you so many times, but I did it thinking it’s better to save myself now, to cut it all in the roots before I’ve fallen for you completely.

I’m only scared of the possibility that this, what we have, might end in the chaos, and truth to be told, I don’t know if I’m strong enough para atravesar otra tormenta. Si me amas, muéstrame que puedo confiar en ti.

Please, don’t allow me to stay in my comfort zone. I want to stay single not because I’m afraid of dating, but because I’m afraid of being broken again. It so much easier to not let anyone in.

It’s way easier to be lonely than to love and be betrayed. But if I don’t let anyone in soon, my warmth for people might be lost.

Podría convertirme en una causa perdida y olvidar lo increíble y cálido que es amar y ser amado.

I might forget how incredible my hands feel in the hands of somebody else I love and how it’s amazing to have someone’s arms to crawl into after a long day. If you love me, make me want more.

Por favor, sálvame de mí mismo. You’re the only one who cared to come this close. I know I’m a tough fortress and that my walls are hard to breach, but I might just open the door to my life if you help me.

If you love me, don’t give up on me. Show me how love feels again. Show me that your love is worth the risk. Actually, don’t make me gamble, make me play safe.

Haz que mis dudas desaparezcan, despídete de mis miedos, rompe mi zona de confort y echa a mi pasado de mi vida.

I know you’re not guilty of my previous heartbreaks, but neither am I. I didn’t deserve all the pain I got. The only way to save myself was to guard up and that’s what I did.

Now that you’ve come along, I don’t know what to do. I feel like a sleeping beauty who needs your kiss to wake up. I’m not going to let you in on my own. But you can help me.

I promise you, once I feel free to love you, I’ll love you like nobody loved you ever before. I’ll love you with my whole body and soul.

What you don’t know is that broken girls love beautifully. But only if somebody tries hard enough. I want you to be that somebody.

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