Por fin entiendo que tu marcha fue lo mejor que me pasó

Quedé destrozado cuando me dejaste. Ese día quedará grabado en mi memoria para siempre. 

I remember my friend telling me that your leaving was the best thing that could’ve happened to me. Her words pierced through my heart.  

¿Cómo pudo decir eso aunque quisiera consolarme? Ella sabía lo que significabas para mí y lo mucho que te quería.

De verdad. Te quería más que a nadie, más que a nada en este mundo. En realidad, tú eras todo mi mundo. 

I think I loved you from the very first day we met, even though I didn’t want to admit it to myself.

Nunca imaginé que un amor así pudiera sucederme. Me enamoré de ti tan ciega y locamente. En realidad, tú hiciste que me enamorara de ti tan profundamente.

Con esa estúpida sonrisa tuya, hiciste que me enamorara de ti a primera vista.

Dios mío, fui tan tonta e ingenua. Nunca podré perdonarme por haberte dejado entrar en mi vida. Siento que mi el corazón roto fue culpa mía. 

Many people tried to warn me that you weren’t being sincere with me. They tried to tell me that you’d only hurt me. But I never doubted your love. I always trusted you and your feelings.

Why did I do that? I thought that they were just being jealous. That they didn’t want me happy.

Así que decidí no hablarles más. Pensé que querían separarnos y los borré de mi vida.

I thought that we had something real and sincere and that’s why it was so easy for me to fight for that love. I was convinced that you were my soulmate and that we’d be together forever.

Forever. One small word but it means so much. Well, for some people it does. You should look for its meaning in a dictionary because obviously, you don’t know it.

Forever doesn’t mean until someone better comes along. It means being there for someone for the rest of time. Being with someone until death do you part.

Mi error fue creyendo que me amabas y enamorarme tanto de ti. Mi error fue hacerte una prioridad cuando siempre fui tu última opción. 

Mi mayor error fue apartar de mi vida a las personas que sólo se preocupaban por mí y querían ayudarme. Y todo por tu culpa. Perdonarte a ti mismo es realmente el tipo de perdón más difícil.

¿Lo ves? Todo se trataba de ti. Tú, tú, tú. Eras la única persona importante para mí. Eras mi todo.

When you came back to ask for a second chance, because you obviously understood what you’d lost, you said that you loved me and that I was important to you.

I’m sorry but it’s impossible for me to trust you when you never proved it.

In the past, I trusted your words but now I realize that words without actions are meaningless. Oh and about that second chance… You don’t deserve it and you will never get it from me.

After all this time, I’ve finally understood what my friend meant when she said that your leaving was the best thing that could happen to me.

Me di cuenta de que en realidad me hiciste un favor dejándome y que debería agradecérselo.

I loved you too much and I would never be able to leave you, even though deep down, I knew that I should. However, you ended things for both of us and I’m glad it’s all over. 

You asked me if I hated you. No. I don’t hate you and I never will. One day, you’ll realize that I’m the one who was always there for you but it’s always going to be too late for us now. I hope you’ll be able to forgive yourself.