Si le importaras una mierda, no estarías confundido

Desde el momento en que conociste a este tipo, nunca supiste a qué atenerte con él.. Nunca quería etiquetar las cosas y tú nunca estabas segura de lo que representabas para él. Había momentos en los que te trataba como si fueras el amor de su vida, momentos en los que actuaba como si los dos no fuerais más que buenos amigos y a veces te trataba como si no significaras nada para él.

All of this time, you’ve been trying to read him through and through. You’ve been trying to make him take off his mask and you’ve been trying to figure him out but you have never managed to do that. You keep wondering what is the meaning of all of the mixed signals he’s been sending you but you simply feel like you can’t get to him, like you can’t reach him.

Al principio pensaste que fingía ser un tipo duro sin emociones. Te preguntaste si le habían hecho daño en el pasado y si alguna mujer le había causado dolor y por eso se comportaba así. Pensaste que era miedo al compromiso y que sólo tenías que tener paciencia para que te mostrara su verdadero yo. Pensaste que tenía miedo de abrirse hasta que estuviera seguro de lo que sentías por él. Así que hiciste todo lo que estuvo en tu mano para demostrarle tu amor. Hiciste todo lo que pudiste para demostrarle que eras alguien en quien podía confiar y que eras digna de su confianza porque querías que ese hombre escondido dentro de él apareciera por fin.

Pero nada de esto fue suficiente. You could never get him to treat you the way you’d been treating him and you could never make him put any effort into his relationship with you.

There were times when you tried to walk away from him because you knew that was the only smart thing to do. But something always kept dragging you back to him. You would always hold on to the nice memories, to every moment when he acted like he loved you and to every time he behaved like he couldn’t live without you. Each time you were ready to live with him, you would remember all of this and you would think it was worth giving him another chance. You kept convincing yourself that he really did love you but that he had some issues that prevented him from showing it to you in the right way.

Well, let me tell you that these were all lies you kept telling yourself because you wanted them to be true. These were all excuses and now it’s finally time you deja de justificar a este hombre. Sé que esto es lo último que quieres oír pero la única verdad es que este hombre nunca se preocupó por ti lo suficiente como para hacerte su novia y demostrarte que eras su prioridad. Siento ser yo quien te lo diga, pero a este chico nunca le importaste una mierda y nunca le importarás, a pesar de todas tus esperanzas y esfuerzos.

And this is something you need to accept before it’s too late. I know you love him deeply and you want him to feel the same way about you but that isn’t going to happen. And his behavior shows you this.

Because he would never treat you this way if he loved you. He would never leave you hanging and he would never allow you to doubt his emotions or to doubt your relationship. If this guy really loved you, he would show it to you. He wouldn’t have trouble expressing his feelings and he wouldn’t have any problem demonstrating his love for you.

No importa lo que intentara hacerte creer, cuando un hombre te ama de verdad, he’ll make it clear. He won’t send you mixed signals and you will always know where you stand with him.

Todo lo demás son tonterías. Todo lo demás es su ego, su deseo de ser querido por alguien, su manipulación emocional y el aprovecharse de que le quieres.

It is anything but love and it’s something you need to accept, no matter how hard it is.