Ya he tenido suficiente de tus mentiras

He malgastado años de mi vida contigo y ahora me doy cuenta de que ni siquiera te conozco. No sé quién eres por tus mentiras.

I don’t know who the person I loved for so long was. Did I ever see your true face or have I loved someone imaginary all of this time?

Cuando te conocí, pensé que eras perfecta.

You presented yourself as a loving and caring guy who would move the world for my sake. I didn’t believe you at first, but you tried very hard to convince me that you were the one for me.

Me decías que eras diferente a los demás y que debía confiar en ti. Y también intentaste demostrármelo.

You were giving me more attention and love than anyone before you. Even though I didn’t want to give myself completely to you, you were chasing me.

You just wouldn’t give up on me. You were always there for me and always ready to help me with my problems.

Y después de un tiempo, aunque una voz interior me decía que eras demasiado bueno para ser verdad, me permití creer en tu amor.

Bajé la guardia. Rompí todos mis muros y te dejé entrar completamente.

Pero, en lugar de disfrutar de nuestro amor juntos, fue entonces cuando cambiaste.

De repente, empecé a notar tus mentiras and deceptions. At first, those were all white lies and I wasn’t taking your lying seriously.

Pero más tarde, vi que no te parecías en nada al hombre que me aseguraste que eras. Supongo que viste que me tenías completamente, así que pensaste que era el momento de mostrar todos tus verdaderos colores.

Sí, tenías razón, no eras como los demás. Eras mucho peor.

I know there are some things most men lie about, but you lied about literally everything—about the little things and about the big ones.

Fue entonces cuando comprendí que mentir está en tu naturaleza. Querías ocultar tu verdadera personalidad, tratando de presentarte como sin pecado.

Pero, la verdad era completamente diferente. En realidad estabas llevando una doble vida todo este tiempo.

Eras un jugador que me mintió en la cara , a man who was cheating on me for years and it took me a long time to realize that. Even when I had signs, when I knew something was wrong, I didn’t want to accept the truth.

You may say I was foolish for believing you when everything was pretty much clear, but I had no other choice. I knew how much I loved you and I thought I couldn’t live without you.

But, I also couldn’t stand being with someone who was lying to me and who was constantly cheating on me. So, I decided it was better to start lying to myself and pretending like I knew nothing about your deceptions.

But, that state I was in couldn’t last forever.

Tarde o temprano, tuve que enfrentarme a la verdad. Tuve que comprender que nunca fuiste del todo sincero conmigo, que sólo me utilizabas para aumentar tu ego, que ninguna de esas chicas era amiga tuya ni compañera de trabajo y que volverías a hacerlo.

I had to understand that even your “I love you” was a lie. Because you don’t lie to a person you love .

Nunca fuiste lo suficientemente hombre para admitir todas tus malas acciones y nunca fuiste lo suficientemente maduro para asumir la responsabilidad de tus actos.

Todos cometemos errores en la vida y probablemente te perdonaría la mayoría de los tuyos, sólo con que fueras sincero conmigo.

Pero.., cuando me mentiste, me quitaste la libertad de elegir. Tomaste decisiones en mi nombre e insultaste mi inteligencia asumiendo que nunca llegaría al fondo de tus engaños.

You didn’t lie by accident— fue tu decisión repetida mentirme conscientemente y eso es algo que nunca podré perdonarte.

After a lot of time, I’ve finally had enough. After I caught you lying so many times, after I’ve given you the benefit of the doubt for more times than you deserved, I came to the point where I couldn’t stand looking at myself in the mirror anymore.

I just couldn’t believe that I allowed you to feed me with your lies and that I acted like I was enjoying it. I started feeling sorry for myself and I was afraid I’d lose my mind.

Verás, para sobrevivir, tuve que crear esta realidad imaginaria en la que tú eras un hombre honesto que merecía mi respeto.  

In that alternative reality, all of your lies were just misunderstandings, all of your excuses made perfect sense and you weren’t undermining my intelligence by constantly trying to deceive me. In that kind of scenario, you were the man we both wanted you to be.

But, the reality is completely different. The reality is that you will never change and that you’ll never respect me enough to start telling me the truth, no matter how harsh it is.

Así que.., this is me telling you I’m done . I’ve had more than enough of your lies and it’s time for me to walk away from you. I gave you enough chances and you played with all of them.

Y no, no tendrás mi perdón. Incluso si pudiera te perdono por mentir to me and cheating on me, I could never forgive you for turning me into the pessimistic, paranoid woman I am today.

Y ambos sabemos que merecía más de ti.