Quería que me arreglaras, pero me rompiste aún más

Aún recuerdo el día en que te conocí, parecías el hombre que había estado esperando toda mi vida. Eras generoso, amable y tenías la sonrisa más bonita de todas.

Too bad that from your sweet mouth there were so many lies that I couldn’t imagine anyone could say.

You know, I really didn’t see you coming. You just appeared in front of me and I thought to myself that God himself was sending you to save me from myself.

But, as always, I was so wrong. You came into my life just like you could feel my wounds that were still bleeding. You were like a wild animal that was feeding on someone’s flesh.

Y eso fue lo que me hiciste. Viniste y conociste toda mi historia.

Sabías que yo había pasado por un infierno y que lo último que necesitaba entonces era alguien que me aprovecharse de mí.

I still remember the day when I told you about the man who totally ruined me and just walked away. You said to me that I didn’t deserve that and that he was stupid for letting me go.

Dijiste que yo era demasiado perfecta para alguien como él y que, si quería, intentaría curar todas esas grietas y cicatrices de mi corazón.

Y en mi cabeza había tantos sentimientos encontrados, pero sobre todo quería que me quisieran. Y te di una oportunidad porque necesitaba a alguien que me hiciera sentir mejor.

Pensé que eras un hombre de verdad por eso, pero me equivoqué..

I can’t blame myself because you were such a damn good actor. You found a way to deceive a girl who loved you.

You said that you would never hurt me. You said you wouldn’t and you fucking did!

Me golpeaste hasta la muerte emocional haciéndome todas esas cosas malas. Para ti yo era la víctima perfecta porque alguien ya me había hecho daño.

You just came and finished the job. That was a way for you to feel superior. Well, let me tell you something. In love, there isn’t anyone who is superior.

En el amor, ambas personas son iguales en todo lo que hacen. En el amor, no hay nadie por encima ni por debajo de ti, sino que están a tu lado, donde está tu corazón.

Oh wait, that is something that you obviously don’t have. Because if you had a heart, you wouldn’t have hurt me so badly.

I just don’t understand why you did all that to me. Why all that cheating, name-calling, emotional and physical abuse and gaslighting?

What did you want to get out of it? Someone who would listen to you blindly? Don’t you know that I already did that because I loved you?

You didn’t have to do all those nasty things to me. I just wanted you to love me but you couldn’t do even that. Because in your own way you were broken too.

But like any man, you were too proud to admit that. And the truth is that you can’t love someone else if you don’t love yourself. And that was a mistake we both made.

Ambos queríamos recibir amor de otra persona, pero en realidad sólo teníamos que amarnos a nosotros mismos para sanar.

I admit my mistake and I know that I won’t repeat it anymore. In all this mess called life, I have learned so many things, though I learned all of them in a tough way.

I learned that I shouldn’t have to believe in all your lies that you told me just to get into my bed. I learned that I should first respect myself so others can do that as well.

I learned that I can’t force love to come into my life but I have to wait for it. Because if I force something, it might not be the right thing.

I know that from my experience with you. I wanted someone to be with me so badly but it turned out that I didn’t make as good a choice as I had thought.

You were such a coward to break an already broken woman. And the worst thing was that you didn’t feel any remorse for doing that.

Usted pensó que nuestro relación tóxica duraría siglos y que siempre me controlarías.

But you didn’t know that I am a born warrior and sooner or later I would stand up and fight for myself.

Una vez que te das cuenta de que sólo tienes una vida por vivir y que alguien la está destruyendo, te vuelves loco.

Y eso fue lo que hice. Perdí completamente la cabeza y te eché de mi casa y de mi corazón.

Aunque te quería y aunque me dolía dejarte marchar, sabía que era más doloroso mantenerte cerca. Ahora, por fin tengo el cierre que tanto ansiaba.

Now, I am a woman who knows what she wants and I won’t settle for less than I deserve.

And you know what? I really don’t need a man to fix me. I just need a man who will love me while I fix myself. And that man will never be YOU!