Eu queria que você me consertasse, mas você me quebrou ainda mais

Ainda me lembro do dia em que te conheci, parecias o homem por quem esperei toda a minha vida. Eras generoso, gentil e tinhas o sorriso mais bonito de sempre.

Too bad that from your sweet mouth there were so many lies that I couldn’t imagine anyone could say.

You know, I really didn’t see you coming. You just appeared in front of me and I thought to myself that God himself was sending you to save me from myself.

But, as always, I was so wrong. You came into my life just like you could feel my wounds that were still bleeding. You were like a wild animal that was feeding on someone’s flesh.

E foi isso que me fez. Chegaste e sabias toda a minha história.

Sabias que eu tinha passado pelo inferno e que a última coisa de que precisava era de alguém que aproveitar-se de mim.

I still remember the day when I told you about the man who totally ruined me and just walked away. You said to me that I didn’t deserve that and that he was stupid for letting me go.

Disseste que eu era demasiado perfeita para alguém como ele e que, se eu quisesse, ele tentaria curar todas aquelas fendas e cicatrizes no meu coração.

E na minha cabeça, havia tantos sentimentos misturados, mas acima de tudo eu queria ser amada. E dei-te uma oportunidade porque precisava de alguém que me fizesse sentir melhor.

Pensei que era um homem a sério para isso, mas enganei-me.

I can’t blame myself because you were such a damn good actor. You found a way to deceive a girl who loved you.

You said that you would never hurt me. You said you wouldn’t and you fucking did!

Mataste-me emocionalmente ao fazeres-me todas aquelas coisas más. Para ti, eu era a vítima perfeita porque alguém já me tinha magoado.

You just came and finished the job. That was a way for you to feel superior. Well, let me tell you something. In love, there isn’t anyone who is superior.

No amor, as duas pessoas são iguais em tudo o que fazem. No amor, não há ninguém acima ou abaixo de nós, mas sim ao nosso lado, onde está o nosso coração.

Oh wait, that is something that you obviously don’t have. Because if you had a heart, you wouldn’t have hurt me so badly.

I just don’t understand why you did all that to me. Why all that cheating, name-calling, emotional and physical abuse and gaslighting?

What did you want to get out of it? Someone who would listen to you blindly? Don’t you know that I already did that because I loved you?

You didn’t have to do all those nasty things to me. I just wanted you to love me but you couldn’t do even that. Because in your own way you were broken too.

But like any man, you were too proud to admit that. And the truth is that you can’t love someone else if you don’t love yourself. And that was a mistake we both made.

Ambos queríamos receber amor de outra pessoa mas, na verdade, só tínhamos de nos amar a nós próprios para nos curarmos.

I admit my mistake and I know that I won’t repeat it anymore. In all this mess called life, I have learned so many things, though I learned all of them in a tough way.

I learned that I shouldn’t have to believe in all your lies that you told me just to get into my bed. I learned that I should first respect myself so others can do that as well.

I learned that I can’t force love to come into my life but I have to wait for it. Because if I force something, it might not be the right thing.

I know that from my experience with you. I wanted someone to be with me so badly but it turned out that I didn’t make as good a choice as I had thought.

You were such a coward to break an already broken woman. And the worst thing was that you didn’t feel any remorse for doing that.

Pensou que o nosso relação tóxica duraria muito tempo e que tu estarias sempre a controlar-me.

But you didn’t know that I am a born warrior and sooner or later I would stand up and fight for myself.

Quando nos apercebemos que só temos uma vida para viver e que alguém a está a destruir, ficamos loucos.

E foi isso que eu fiz. Perdi completamente a cabeça e expulsei-te da minha casa e do meu coração.

Mesmo que te amasse e mesmo que me doesse deixar-te partir, sabia que era mais doloroso manter-te por perto. Agora, finalmente tenho a conclusão que tanto desejava.

Now, I am a woman who knows what she wants and I won’t settle for less than I deserve.

And you know what? I really don’t need a man to fix me. I just need a man who will love me while I fix myself. And that man will never be YOU!