Ya no quiere que vuelvas

No tienes ni idea de cuánto tiempo ha estado esperando a que esto ocurriera. No tienes ni idea de cuánto tiempo ha esperado para decir estas palabras liberadoras. No tienes ni idea de lo libre que se siente ahora.

Finalmente, ya no te quiere de vuelta.

For too long, she’s been unable to get you out of her system. For too long, she’s been recalling your old times and she’s been missing your presence.

She missed you so much. She missed it as if what you had wasn’t painful.

It’s funny how a heart can be deceiving. It just reminds us of the pretty memories as if it was trying to convince us that the bad days never existed. But she knows they did. The cracks on her mind, soul, and heart remind her of that constantly.

But she’s learned to live with it by now.

She’s managed to break free from the chains of your amor...ese amor tóxico que diste. 

Yo digo amor as if you know what it is. A man who knows love wouldn’t have hurt her so much. A man who knows love wouldn’t grow pain wherever he went. No, you don’t know love, but you’ve played it as if you did so well.

Mereces un aplauso por la jugada que has hecho tan bien. Ni por un segundo dudó de tus sentimientos. Ni por un segundo fue capaz de prever la angustia que le esperaba. La enganchaste tan bien que resultó ser una simple marioneta en tus manos.

Pero todo tiene un final y por eso ha llegado el final de tus juegos manipuladores.

She’s finally letting you go.

She’s finally freeing herself from this idea that you’re the one for her. You’re not.

She’s letting life carry her to a new place. She believes from this point on, things are going to be better because sh’s already been through the worst.

Holding on means trying to push life where she wants it to be, thinking she can change the circumstances when in fact, she’s unable to change anything. Your story is what it is. And it’s never gonna be more than that no matter what she does. 

You’re never gonna change no matter how much she loves you. You’re never gonna love her the way she deserves to be loved because all you know is how to hurt people and she’s done sacrificing her sanity just because she loves you.

She’s ready to accept you as you are.

Just mere passengers in each other’s lives.

Amor infeliz.

Un atormentador y una víctima.

You – an hombre inmaduro who wanted to be put on a pedestal and worshipped and her- a girl who needed so much to love and who wanted to be loved so badly that she got blinded by the smallest affection. Lethal combination, don’t you think?

Pero como he dicho antes, todo tiene un final y lo decía en serio.

When you walked away, that’s not when you two ended. Because she couldn’t let it go. She wanted you back so badly. She knew it was unhealthy and she knew you made her feel miserable more than you made her feel happy and yet, she missed your presence. She wanted you just to be near her no matter how much it hurt. But she outgrew her emotions and she stopped being toxic for herself.

She’s replaced all the venom you imprinted on her with pure fresh blood and this new version of her doesn’t want to have anything with you anymore.

Now she sees clearly that although she thought you brought her a lot of love, all those happy moments were replaced by the pain you’ve put her through. She had to pay for them somehow, someway. For a moment of happiness, she needed to live days of misery. And this isn’t something she’d wish even for her worst enemy.

But don’t worry, she’s dejó de obsesionarse contigo. She’s done with loving you. She’s done with believing that there is something wrong with her or that she’s not good enough when it’s you who’s bad from head to toe.

Even though she thought this day won’t ever come… it did. She doesn’t want you back. She’s ready to leave you in the past and never look back. Because that’s where you belong.

Au revoir.