Carta de despedida al hombre al que aún no estoy preparada para decir adiós

Supongo que todos tenemos días difíciles, ¿verdad? Bueno, este es uno de los días más difíciles de mi vida. Tengo que despedirme to the man I’m still not quite ready to let go of. Even writing this letter is heartbreaking for me.

To be honest, I’m ready because I know it’s finally time to start thinking about myself. But my heart isn’t. My heart’s been ruling my mind for too long and I can’t allow it to do so anymore.

Ya sabes lo que dice el refrán, “The heart wants what it wants,” and unfortunately we can’t do much about it.

I know it’s not possible to make your heart stop loving someone. I know because I tried. I tried so hard to put my feelings aside and let go of you many times, but I just couldn’t do it.

You just can’t make your heart do anything and trust me, no one wishes that weren’t true more than me.

No matter how much I tried, I couldn’t forget you. I couldn’t make my heart stop loving you. My mind was telling me that I have to let you go but my heart was fighting tooth and nail against it.

That constant battle between my mind and heart has become truly unbearable. I just can’t take it anymore. I’ve had to make this final decision and my heart will have to come to terms with it eventually.

I know it’s for my own good. I know that my mind has actually saved me from getting my heart broken for the – oh my God, I even stopped counting how many times.

My heart will need some time more to process this and understand why I had to do it – why I had to leave the hombre que amé más que cualquier otra cosa en este mundo.

It’ll also need some time to heal. And that’s fine. I only hope that one day it’ll be ready to let someone new in. Espero que mi corazón pueda volver a amar a alguien algún día.

This wasn’t your mistake only, you have to know that. We both made mistakes and this is the outcome. It’s just time to go our separate ways.

Despite those mistakes, we also had a great time together and shared so many beautiful moments. Our love was always so special. It’s hard to forget it. Actually, it’s impossible.

Eso fue antes de que dejó de luchar. Eso fue antes de renunciaste a nuestro amor, antes de que dejaras de quererme.

You still swear that you love me, but I can’t believe you anymore. I don’t see that spark in your eyes when you look at me. I just can’t feel it in your touch anymore.

Sé que nada en la vida es constante. Todo tiene sus límites y todo llega a su fin. Sé que las cosas cambian.

Tú cambiaste. Nuestro amor cambió. Para nosotros, todo cambió. Sin embargo, siempre recordaré nuestro amor con una sonrisa.

I’ve always known that people can stop loving each other and they can separate. It’s just that I thought that we’d never be one of those couples. I truly believed that we were “for the rest of our lives.”

I’ll always remember the day we first met. The first time I held your hand. The first time you wrapped your arms around me. Our first kiss.

The first time I could see in your eyes that you’d completely fallen in love with me.

Even if I don’t fall in love ever again, I’ll always be happy because Tuve el privilegio de conocer a amor verdadero una vez.

That’s why I also want to thank you. You showed me what true love is. You showed me what it means to be truly appreciated and cherished by someone, even though at the end of our relationship, it changed.

One day, my heart will heal. I’ll help it glue back those broken pieces and it’ll be able to continue. It’ll be able to let someone new in. Whatever’s coming next, I’m sure that you’ll always remain in my heart.

Adiós, querida. Cuídate mucho. Espero que Dios te dé todo lo que pidas. Mi amor, mi único amor, adiós para siempre.