Carta al hombre que me engañó

Querido 'Amor de mi vida',

Escribo esta carta por muchas razones. En primer lugar, la escribo porque quiero desprenderme por fin de este dolor que llevo dentro.

Secondly, I am writing it because I want you to have a piece of paper that will be a reminder of all that nasty things you did to me—and we both know that there were many of them.

Verás, siempre soñé que me casaría con un solo hombre y que... va a ser para siempre. I thought to myself that I will experience the kind of love that feels like home—pure, innocent and lovely.

Tenía planes para nuestras vidas. Imaginaba a nuestros hijos corriendo por la casa mientras tú los perseguías.

I imagined our Christmases spent together while we are watching movies under the blanket and drinking hot chocolate. You know, I dreamed about a lot of things—beautiful ones.

Pero un día, de repente, descubrí que me engañaste. Aún recuerdo el día en que llegaste a casa y admitiste que había alguien más en tu vida.

Alguien que hace que tu corazón lata más rápido. Alguien que hace que dejes de respirar por un segundo. Alguien que representa el cumplimiento de todos tus sueños.

And it was too bad that woman wasn’t me. After you told me everything about her, I thought that you were kidding with me. I thought that you just wanted to see my reaction. But you were dead serious.

Y al mirarte a los ojos, me di cuenta de que se había acabado. Todo lo que habíamos estado construyendo todos esos años había terminado. Cada sueño, cada esperanza, cada aspiración. Todo fue en vano.

¿Y yo?

I just stood there, completely broken, staring at the wall in front of me. I was trying to say something but there wasn’t anything clever coming out of my mouth.

So, I just left. I packed my bags without a word and I left you. I felt like an injured wolf who needs to be alone to heal his wounds. My ego was shaken. My whole world was falling apart and I didn’t have any common sense.

Ese día pasé mucho tiempo pensando en ti y en nuestra vida juntos. Estaba tan enfadada contigo porque la elegiste a ella antes que a mí. Sólo espero que merezca la pena.

I hope she is worth all my pain and my tears. And I hope that you will be able to develop a normal and stable relationship with her. Maybe you didn’t love me enough.

Maybe our relationship already died but we weren’t aware of that fact. Maybe we let our happiness slip away. And just maybe we didn’t put enough effort into our story.

When I look back, I don’t regret anything. I am a strong woman and I can deal with my pain. Honestly, es mucho mejor que me hayas dejado, but I would prefer that you hadn’t cheated on me.

I think I deserved that after all those years we spent together. Unfortunately, you did it on your own. You were selfish and you weren’t thinking about me. What else could I have expected from a man like you?

You broke me and you didn’t even ask me if I needed any help. We could have talked about it like adults. You could have been sincere with me.

You could have told me that you don’t feel anything for me and that you want to be with someone else. But you didn’t. And that is breaking my heart.

You didn’t just cheat on me, you cheated on us. You didn’t just break my heart, you broke our future. And that is something I will never forgive you.

And in the end, I have a message for you: “You can continue cheating yourself, but ME, never again!”