7 confesiones sinceras que me gustaría poder hacerle a mi ex

There are things I’d like to share with mi ex, but I can’t.

It’s not that I’m not brave enough to tell him everything that’s on my mind. It’s just that I believe that him knowing about all this is unnecessary and can only cause me more pain.

Maybe there will be time for a perfect closure where I’ll be able to tell him everything, but for now, I’ll open my heart and soul to you.

This is what I’d like to confess to him when the time is right:

Quería que te doliera tanto como a mí

I sometimes pretended that I wanted nothing but the best for you, but I secretly wished that you’d feel as heartbroken as I was.

Me resultaba insoportable pensar que tú te sentías bien mientras yo sentía que se me iba a acabar el mundo. Todo me dolía mucho y esperaba que tú sintieras lo mismo.

It’s not that I usually like to see you in any pain, it’s just that would have been proof for me that our love meant something to you.

On one level, I’ll always be available to you

I’ll never again be available to you in the sense I was before, but there’s a part of me that’ll always be weak to your voice, appearance, smell… your existence.

You’ll never be an irrelevant person for me, no matter how distant we’ve grown and how many years might pass.

I won’t be waiting for you, but I can’t guarantee to myself that I’d never get back together with you in certain circumstances.

I’m still not completely fine with us not being together

I’ve moved on with my life, but it felt awful that our relationship ended and I never completely recovered from that.

Compartimos muchas cosas y durante un tiempo creí que eras la elegida.

Even after all this time apart, I’m still not perfectly okay with not being by your side and being able to call myself your girlfriend.

Still, I think that we weren’t meant to be

Even with that, I’m almost certain that I was nunca quiso ser tuya forever. There’s something inside my head that tells me you were never the one for me.

Esa voz a veces me hablaba incluso cuando estábamos juntos y yo la silenciaba, y ahora la uso como consuelo cuando me siento mal por nuestra ruptura.

I can’t put a finger on what it was, but something was always missing.

I don’t really miss you, I miss me when I was with you

I can’t really say that I miss having you in my life in a traditional way such as spending time together and doing all the things we did.

What I miss most is the person I was when you were there. I was excited, cheerful, happy… You made me feel so many wonderful emotions and I miss them all.

Me encuentro pensando en ti y lo odio

Pienso en ti al azar y me molesta. Esos pensamientos aparecen de la nada y siempre me molestan.

I don’t wish to forget about you, you played an important role in my life. Still, I wish I would think of you less often and not feel your presence all the time.

Sinceramente espero que encuentres la felicidad

Now, after everything that happened between us in the past, I can honestly say I don’t wish you any kind of misfortune or pain.

I’d be truly happy if I knew you’d found felicidad en todos los aspectos de tu vida.

I can’t say that finding out you’d found a perfect girl or got married wouldn’t sting for a bit, but I believe that’s perfectly normal.

Sinceramente, espero que todos los sueños de los que me hablaste se hagan realidad y que nunca te olvides de la chica con la que una vez los compartiste.