7 confessioni sincere che vorrei poter fare al mio ex

There are things I’d like to share with il mio ex, but I can’t.

It’s not that I’m not brave enough to tell him everything that’s on my mind. It’s just that I believe that him knowing about all this is unnecessary and can only cause me more pain.

Maybe there will be time for a perfect closure where I’ll be able to tell him everything, but for now, I’ll open my heart and soul to you.

This is what I’d like to confess to him when the time is right:

Volevo che tu fossi ferito come lo sono stato io

I sometimes pretended that I wanted nothing but the best for you, but I secretly wished that you’d feel as heartbroken as I was.

Era insopportabile per me pensare che tu stessi bene mentre io mi sentivo come se il mio mondo stesse per finire. Tutto faceva così male e speravo che anche tu ti sentissi così.

It’s not that I usually like to see you in any pain, it’s just that would have been proof for me that our love meant something to you.

On one level, I’ll always be available to you

I’ll never again be available to you in the sense I was before, but there’s a part of me that’ll always be weak to your voice, appearance, smell… your existence.

You’ll never be an irrelevant person for me, no matter how distant we’ve grown and how many years might pass.

I won’t be waiting for you, but I can’t guarantee to myself that I’d never get back together with you in certain circumstances.

I’m still not completely fine with us not being together

I’ve moved on with my life, but it felt awful that our relationship ended and I never completely recovered from that.

Abbiamo condiviso così tanto e per un po' ho creduto davvero che tu fossi quello giusto.

Even after all this time apart, I’m still not perfectly okay with not being by your side and being able to call myself your girlfriend.

Still, I think that we weren’t meant to be

Even with that, I’m almost certain that I was mai destinato ad essere tuo forever. There’s something inside my head that tells me you were never the one for me.

Quella voce a volte mi parlava anche quando stavamo insieme e io l'ho messa a tacere, e ora la uso come consolazione quando sto male per la nostra rottura.

I can’t put a finger on what it was, but something was always missing.

I don’t really miss you, I miss me when I was with you

I can’t really say that I miss having you in my life in a traditional way such as spending time together and doing all the things we did.

What I miss most is the person I was when you were there. I was excited, cheerful, happy… You made me feel so many wonderful emotions and I miss them all.

Mi ritrovo a pensare a te e lo detesto

Penso a te in modo casuale e questo mi infastidisce. Questi pensieri appaiono dal nulla e mi turbano sempre.

I don’t wish to forget about you, you played an important role in my life. Still, I wish I would think of you less often and not feel your presence all the time.

Spero sinceramente che troviate la felicità

Now, after everything that happened between us in the past, I can honestly say I don’t wish you any kind of misfortune or pain.

I’d be truly happy if I knew you’d found felicità in tutti gli aspetti della vostra vita.

I can’t say that finding out you’d found a perfect girl or got married wouldn’t sting for a bit, but I believe that’s perfectly normal.

Spero sinceramente che tutti i sogni di cui mi hai parlato si avverino e che tu non dimentichi mai la ragazza con cui li hai condivisi.