No quieres salir con una chica como yo

I’ve read so many times how boys have made girls think they’re not worthy or how they broke them and how they left them to pick up their pieces after they were gone.

And I don’t want that to happen to me. I don’t want you to make me fall for you and then you choose to not date me.

I don’t want you to leave me to handle all the emotions you’ve awoken in me.

I’ve always been a bit different, so if you’re not ready to accept me as I am, trust me—you don’t want to date me.

Soy un desastre.

I’m still figuring out my life and everything about me is messy.

I listen to all sorts of songs because I still haven’t decided what kind of music I like. Sometimes I do a thousand things in a single day and sometimes I don’t feel like getting out of bed.

Sometimes I love being around people and I’m the funniest person to be around and sometimes I don’t feel like talking at all.

It’s just who I am and I have no idea how long it will take me to un-mess myself.

Soy una persona que piensa demasiado.

Pensar demasiado is something I’m pretty sure I’ll remain as long as I am alive. I want to know why and I need to find the meaning in everything.

Me cuesta olvidarme de las cosas. Pienso en una cosa sencilla de cien maneras distintas y analizo cada escenario, y aunque elija el mejor, siempre temo que algo salga mal.

No dejo de cuestionarme a mí misma y me cuesta conciliar el sueño porque repito mil veces en mi cabeza todo lo que salió mal.

Puede que quieras cambiar esto de mí, pero créeme, tus esfuerzos serán en vano.

Estoy lejos de ser perfecto.

I know I’m not perfect and I know I have thousands of imperfections. I have freckles on my nose, I laugh a lot and that’s why I have a lot of wrinkles around my eyes, and my body has stretch marks.

I often forget things and I make promises that are hard to keep and I try harder than anyone else would and I even try to be perfect even though I know I’m far from perfect.

I like to call myself a perfect imperfection and if you’re looking for a girl without a single flaw then I’m not the one for you. Leave me for someone who’ll take me as I am and love me despite my imperfections.

Soy emocional.

I don’t even think emotional can describe me to begin with. I laugh a lot. My laugh is hilarious and once I start laughing I don’t stop until tears start rolling down my face.

Lloro mucho. Lloro cuando veo a personas mayores solas, lloro cuando veo a un cachorro y lloro durante las películas, tanto si las veo solo en casa como con mis amigos en el cine.

I just can’t help myself. I feel everything and I feel it so intensely and I can’t switch it off. If you hate emotions, if you’re a cold type of a guy, you don’t want to date me, trust me.

Llevo el corazón en la manga.

I don’t pretend and I am bad at lying. My cheeks blush instantly, my heart starts beating way too fast and I start mumbling.

I gave up on playing games a long time ago, it just isn’t my thing. And if I like someone, I make sure they’re aware of it.

I give them my heart and my soul even if they might not be good to me. If I don’t like someone, I stay far away from them and I don’t ever pretend I like them; it’s really easy to read me.

So if you don’t like straightforward people, I’m afraid I won’t be your favorite person in this world. Dating me won’t be something you’ll enjoy either.

Y cuando amo, amo de todo corazón.

I don’t hold back in love. I never did. I guess that’s why I had my corazón roto demasiadas veces.

Pero nunca aprendo. Nada me impide enamorarme perdidamente de alguien.

I just don’t think love is something you should half do. That’s why when I love, I love wholeheartedly.

So, if you’re more for playing games, if you only do love occasionally, if you guard your heart and if you’re afraid to love, please, for the sake of both of us, stay far away and don’t bother dating me.

If you can’t handle everything I am, don’t date me. Don’t even try and make me fall for you just so you could leave once I welcome you into my heart.

If I’m too much, I understand.

Perhaps I’ll be just enough to someone else. Don’t destroy me just so you’d see if we could work out.

If I am not the type of girl you like, then don’t date me.

But if you are up for it, don’t expect me to change and don’t try changing me. Accept me as I am. I don’t ask for anything more than this.