Te superaré, aunque sea lo último que haga

While you and I were together, you kept convincing me that I would never find someone if you left me. You did everything in your power to destroy my confidence and partly, you’ve succeeded in doing so.

You were always trying to convince me that I had no value and that I was good for nothing. At first, I didn’t believe you and I knew that you were only telling me all this to play with my head and to insult me.

Pero, con el tiempo tengo que admitir que empecé a creerte. Empecé a pensar que realmente eras lo mejor que me podía pasar, a pesar de todo el maltrato al que me sometías.

Cuando me ibas a dejar, me dijiste que debería alegrarme de haberte tenido en mi vida y que estabas segura de que nunca te superaría.

And I was also certain of that. I was sure that I’d love you for the rest of my life, even if you didn’t love me. I simply couldn’t see the reason of my existence without you by my side.

When you first walked away from me, I couldn’t remember the person I was before you came into my life. I felt like I never existed without you and that was the worst part.

You know, I was always afraid that you’d leave me and that fear came true. And when you did, you broke my heart. But that was something I could handle and something I hoped I would eventually recover from.

Pero de lo que pensé que nunca me recuperaría es de la manera tu amor me rompió completamente.

Y eso es algo que todavía estoy aprendiendo a superar.

But it doesn’t mean I still think I will never get over you. Because I know I will, even if it’s the last thing I ever do.

Y it certainly doesn’t mean I’ve stopped loving you. Porque tristemente, te sigo queriendo y esa es la única verdad. Sigo pensando en ti todos los días y todavía hay momentos en los que deseo que vuelvas.

A veces, todavía me despierto por la mañana sin darme cuenta de que te has ido. Sigo buscándote y sigo esperando oír tu voz.

Todavía hay noches en las que lloro hasta quedarme dormida y momentos en los que miro el teléfono, esperando ver un mensaje o una llamada perdida tuya.

I know that I shouldn’t feel like this and that you don’t deserve for me to ever think of you, but I guess we can’t control our emotions. I guess my love for you is stronger than my reason for now.

Sé que esto es temporal y Lo sé. el tiempo lo cura todo cuando dejas que siga su curso. Tengo fe en mí misma y en la fuerza de mi mente, y sé que seguiré adelante con mi vida.

Sé que con el tiempo, te convertirás en un recuerdo lejano. Sé que un día, serás sólo una parte del pasado para mí.

I know that there will come a day when I won’t wait for you and a day when I’ll move on from this blind spot you’ve left me on. I know there will come a day when I’ll stop holding on to our failed relationship and on to your almost love.

There will come a day when I won’t look at every man who looks remotely like you and when I won’t hear the sound of your voice wherever I go. I know that there will come a day when I’ll stop hoping you will come back into my life.

Sé que al final seguiré viviendo mi vida como si nunca hubieras formado parte de ella. Sé que encontraré a alguien mejor que tú, someone who will always think I’m worthy and someone who will love me in all the ways you didn’t.

And most of all, I know that there will come a day when I’ll stop loving you. And that there will come a day when I’ll love myself more than I love you.