Quiero amor, pero me da mucho miedo

Quiero amor, un amor verdadero que por fin me demuestre que puedo ser yo misma. Quiero un amor que no se esconda, que no sea calculador, miedoso o indeciso.

Quiero un amor tan fuerte que supere todos mis miedos. ¿Es mucho pedir?

Sometimes I’m so convinced I will never find it. The emptiness in my chest is too comfortable. I’m used to it.

It seems as if I crave love and at the same time, I’m afraid of it. I’m scared of commitment and being hurt again. I’m scared of making one big decision with such a huge impact on the rest of my life.

Maybe it’s because subconsciously my mind thinks I’m not deserving of love. Why?

I don’t accept myself as I am, and no matter how hard the other person tries to make me comfortable, I can’t feel comfortable inside myself.

Lo mismo hace que me sienta atraída por compañeros que me maltratan.

I don’t want to end up with someone who will ruin my life and leave me in pieces. It happened before. That’s why I’m feeling this wrecked in the first place.

When you go through abuse, everything in your life changes. You’re not the person you were before.

Uncertainty and feeling powerless become part of you. There’s no going back to the old.

Francamente, la idea de que alguien me vea tal y como I am scares the heck out of me. It’s almost like admitting lo que ves ahora es todo lo que puedo darte. And I‘m scared that’s not enough.

I don’t want to just wake up heartbroken one day. I’d rather wake up lonely even if it hurts. The fear of future pain is almost paralyzing.

However, I want to overcome this fear and I’m aware that the first step in overcoming it is changing my relationship with myself.

When we stop limiting our feelings and let ourselves be vulnerable, things start changing. If we’re not vulnerable, we’re not being honest with ourselves.

Me lo recuerdo a mí misma: En algún lugar ahí fuera hay una persona que aceptará tus imperfecciones y nunca pensará en ti como demasiado o demasiado poco cualquier cosa. Alguien que realmente ama todo lo que eres.

Pero antes de eso, tienes que dejar que te vean.

Don’t paralyze yourself in fear and don’t give or accept half-hearted love.

Be yourself proudly. Don’t let the past trauma take you away from you. You’re more than the things that happened to you.

Don’t close off your heart because by doing that, you’re hurting yourself anyway.

Cada lección de la vida tiene su significado. Todo en la vida continúa, así que deja que continúe.

Don’t settle thinking I’m that girl who’s going to end up alone forever. That’s not true! You decide who you are.

Instead, stop thinking about love and a relationship as something unattainable. Making an effort towards something always opens a new door you didn’t know about.

Make a connection, say what’s on your heart, don’t worry about how you’re being perceived, and let the magic happen.

Being hurt or even being alone isn’t the worst thing that can happen to you. Every situation is a chance for growth.

Take your pain and what you learned from it to plant something new – something that can be your own revolution.

You can have someone you can call your own, someone who will be there always. Someone who loves you without limit – who won’t make you feel worthless, overlooked, put aside or sad.

Mereces amar y ser amado a cambio. Abre tu corazón a algo nuevo.

Start by loving yourself and watch things change. Little by little you will find yourself doing things you never imagined. Bit by bit you’ll notice fear disappearing.

Love is the most powerful of all things, so don’t underestimate its importance in your life. You need it, you’re deserving of it, and you can experience it in its truest form.

Don’t let it scare you. True love doesn’t know fear.

Existe. Deja que te encuentre.