Sometimes in life we think we know everything. We think we know exactly when things are supposed to happen for us and when. But life doesn’t work that way.
As much as you’d like it (as would I), you’re not in control of your destiny. God is. And sometimes all you can do is decide to let things happen the way they are supposed to and pray it all works out.
I remember meeting this perfect guy a few years back. It was a weird time for me as I was struggling with a few things, but I distinctly remember the moment I met him and feeling that instant vibe.
You know the one that knocks you off your feet and makes your skin tingle?
That’s the one. And this guy was something special. He knew just what to say and how to treat me, and I felt like this was the one for me, no doubt about it.
Even though I was struggling at the time (mild alcohol addiction and a less than ideal living situation), I decided that I was set for life.
I felt I had met the man I was supposed to spend my forever with, despite the obvious red flags (that were mostly on my part).
See, I was in no place for a stable, healthy, love story. I wasn’t equipped to deal with that all-encompassing love that takes you for a spin and makes you want to commit for life.
I was a hot mess. I was in such a bad place that even the thought of taking care of and nurturing a relationship made me dizzy, but I fooled myself into thinking I was up for it.
I went against myself and ignored all of his pleas to get help. I just thought I knew best. In my head – I was fine.
Who doesn’t drink every now and then? So what if I couldn’t find a permanent place to live? Isn’t that the way it’s supposed to be when you’re young?
But it wasn’t, and it took me a few years to come to terms with it. I thought I knew what I was doing. I thought I could flip a switch inside of me just like that and make everything okay… but I couldn’t.
Needless to say, my relationship crumbled before it had a chance to actually flourish. We never stood a chance. I only wish I had realized this sooner.
I have to say, this was a tough pill to swallow, but it needed to happen for me to gain this much-needed perspective.
Now I know that God is the only one who knows what I need. And He won’t show it to me until He knows that I am ready. And that’s okay.
Because in all honesty, what do we really know about life and love?
You learn as you go. You make your mistakes, and only after you’ve learned from those mistakes does God show you the one you’re meant to be with.
I know it might seem a bit harsh, but that’s the truth. I’ve stopped thinking I know everything. I’ve stopped believing that I know what’s best. I don’t, and it feels so good to be able to say that.
It’s all in God’s hands. And trust me – He knows what He’s doing.
At times it might feel like you’re lost. And in those times, you need to keep your faith that this is the path you need to walk in order to make your mistake and learn a valuable lesson from it.
Once you stop seeing your mistakes as something bad and start treating them as learning experiences, things are going to start looking up for you. They did for me.
God is always there for you. You may not always see and hear Him, but He’s there, and He hears you.
And you know what? Just because it may seem that your life is a constant storm of shitty things, it doesn’t mean that He doesn’t have something magnificent planned for you!
Let my situation inspire you to keep your spirits high and your faith in God intact.
Just a few short years back, I was a mess. I didn’t have a place to live. I couldn’t keep a friend to save my life, and I drowned my misery in booze.
And do you know where I’m now? I am in the best headspace I have ever been. I let God take control, and things slowly started looking up.
Once I realized I couldn’t control what would happen to me and that forcing things when they’re not supposed to be is only going to backfire, I gained this beautiful perspective that changed my life.
Now, I am a woman in love. And it is peaceful, reassuring and all kinds of right. And do you want to know why? Because I took care of myself first.
I prioritized myself. And one day, the pieces of the puzzle started coming together, and my life was becoming something I was finally proud of.
God showed me the man I was supposed to be with only when I was truly ready to see him. And not a minute sooner.
A few years ago, it wouldn’t have worked out. But today, it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me, and I can proudly and selflessly give it my all.
Learn to let go. Trust God and His plan. Just because today you’re struggling doesn’t mean tomorrow won’t get better! He’ll make sure it does, and I am your living proof!