Did anyone ever tell you that you are perfect? Did it make you feel good or did it made you feel bad because you had to justify your perfection by trying harder, being better and never giving up? You see, we are living in a world where everybody is trying to be perfect, like their life depends on it. When I open my Facebook, there are only perfect faces popping up.
All I can see are perfect women, with perfect homes, husbands and kids, who are going to perfect exotic destinations and who live perfect lives. They have perfect jobs with perfect colleagues and they seem like they don’t have any problems.
But you know what? Fuck that! Fuck their perfect lives when they have to use Photoshop in every selfie they take because they are not as beautiful as they appear to be. Fuck their perfect husbands who hit on every hot woman who comes along. Fuck their vacations to exotic destinations because they took out a bank loan so they could show off in front of their ‘perfect’ friends.
You know, some people only care if you are wealthy and if society accepts you. Because you don’t want to do something to depart from societal rules, right? It is extremely important to be a part of something and if you don’t belong anywhere, you don’t exist, at least not in a world like this.
So, once again, fuck that world! I never was perfect and I don’t want to be perfect. I am perfectly imperfect and I am more than okay with that. I don’t want to be one of those girls who doesn’t think with her own head and who nods to all the shit that others say just because they have an important role in society. I don’t want to be molded into something I don’t want to be just because someone else likes it. I want to be on my own. I want to find the right path to happiness and I want to think in a normal and healthy way.
And if someone has a problem with that or if someone doesn’t accept me the way I am, then I don’t need that person in my life. I will always be a little bit messy, a little bit crazy and a girl who wears her heart on her sleeve all the way through life. Because that is what matters the most in the end. I want to make a life that will be only mine, without others telling me what to do or how to behave.
Because I am not like those perfect girls you see on the street. I will never say something just so others will like me. I will always say what I mean, no matter how good or bad it may sound. But at least it will come from the bottom of my heart. And no matter what happens, I will never strive for perfection because it really doesn’t exist. I will always be a girl with my own scars that are a part of my story.
I will be different from the other people you meet because I am unique and that is what makes me so special. I will always stay faithful to myself because that is the only way to not lose myself. And no matter what happens, I will always love and accept myself the way I am. That is the only way I can find the peace I crave so much. Because life is too short and the last thing I need is to pretend that I am someone else. I am proud for all that I have accomplished and even if it is not much, I am grateful for every lesson and every blessing that I receive.
So, this is me, perfectly imperfect and I am more than okay with that. If you want to accept me like this, don’t try to change me. I will change when I feel it is the right time for that and not when someone else wants me to. I like to be beautifully broken and a little bit on my own. That is what makes me so unique and I don’t want to change that for anything in this world.