Eri il mio male necessario

At that time in your life when you try out something you had a lifetime desire to try and feel, you simply forget about everything else – all the other things that once mattered just go out of your mind. Everything else becomes so unimportant. You get hooked on another person who you care about and you two become alone on the planet and the rest of the world is a great and wide space which adapts to your needs.

Sei entrato nella mia vita in un momento di confusione e quando avevo quasi perso la voglia di avere qualsiasi tipo di relazione interumana. Mille volte ho giocato e mille volte. Sono rimasto solo nella tempesta, dove troppe volte sono stato costretto a pensare che non ci fossero più vie d'uscita e che tutto si fosse fermato per me.

The moment of meeting you flashed before me and I was left speechless. It captured me, so I couldn’t continue without those eyes of yours that keep fulfilling my life with happiness in a destined and desirable way. I shouldn’t have fallen in love with you, but I did.

Da quel giorno, la mia preoccupazione più importante è stata quella di cercarti, cercando di mantenere i contatti. Anche se una parte di me era ragionevole e cercava di svegliarmi e di dimostrarmi che mi sbagliavo, stavo facendo qualcosa di proibito. I battiti del mio cuore erano sufficienti a farmi dimenticare la ragione, e per la prima volta in vita mia stavo cogliendo l'occasione per fare l'unica cosa che volevo.

I couldn’t hide my enthusiasm for a single moment, so others could easily see what I thought about you, even though I wanted to keep you only for myself. You had woken up some weird feelings in my body and soul.

The best possible thing that had made me the happiest woman is that you had felt the same way about me from the beginning. Even if it stayed our little secret forever, I would be satisfied because I had a person in my life, someone who was an immense support, whose hug made me feel like a child, and whose hands gave me strength and security so I didn’t have any need to look for anything else…

Am I aware of my sins, and of the problems that could come out of our relationship? Some of us live in places where differences are being judged and hated. It doesn’t matter if it is age difference, clothes, a tattoo or a piercing – you just can’t run away from curious sights… What does matter is that you don’t let that touch you or to change your opinion.

From day one, the only thing I was a hundred percent sure of was that I wanted only you. We survived some serious crises, we passed through good and evil together, and you could be sure that I would be with you until the end… You were all I had ever wanted and you understood all my wishes, fears, and all the tiny things I had repressed. Your words and the moments spent with you are unforgettable, so thank you for being honest and telling me clearly that we would not always be happy, that we would have some bad days and some brilliant days, but at the end of each day, we would have each other and that would keep us happy.

I am completely aware and positive about loving my sins now. If you’re a sin, then I’m a sinner and I am ready to take responsibility and to feel the consequences. I would choose to suffer a year for a minute spent in your arms. I will be happy because I did what I loved and had the man of my life, for whom I was born too late. Those who said, “It’s never too late,” I guess they had that right.

Non siamo nulla, eppure siamo tutto l'uno per l'altro. Lui si avvicina quando io voglio allontanarmi, e se ne va quando io mi avvicino. Ci amiamo e ci odiamo. Mi difende con gli altri, mentre io gli ho dato solo l'opportunità di ferirmi. Ride con me e a volte con me. But when he’s not around, God, I miss him! He’s my necessary evil. Our relationship went through some struggles and every time we managed to remain together in the name of love.

I am ready for everything! Are the others ready to quit everything else because of love? My bravery, as well as my good and bad deeds, will stay only mine, and if my love is wrong, God will judge it. People don’t need to forgive me things. Explanations are just not my thing. Life is too short to be wasted on living how others want you to live.