Una lettera al ragazzo che mi ha tradito

Caro "amore della mia vita",

Scrivo questa lettera per un gran numero di motivi. In primo luogo, la scrivo perché voglio finalmente lasciar andare il dolore che ho dentro.

Secondly, I am writing it because I want you to have a piece of paper that will be a reminder of all that nasty things you did to me—and we both know that there were many of them.

Vedete, ho sempre sognato di sposare un solo uomo e che questo sarà per sempre. I thought to myself that I will experience the kind of love that feels like home—pure, innocent and lovely.

Avevo dei progetti per la nostra vita. Ho immaginato i nostri figli che correvano per casa mentre tu li inseguivi.

I imagined our Christmases spent together while we are watching movies under the blanket and drinking hot chocolate. You know, I dreamed about a lot of things—beautiful ones.

Ma un giorno, all'improvviso, ho scoperto che mi hai tradito. Ricordo ancora il giorno in cui sei tornato a casa e hai ammesso che c'era qualcun altro nella tua vita.

Qualcuno che ti fa battere il cuore più velocemente. Qualcuno che ti fa smettere di respirare per un secondo. Qualcuno che rappresenta la realizzazione di tutti i tuoi sogni.

And it was too bad that woman wasn’t me. After you told me everything about her, I thought that you were kidding with me. I thought that you just wanted to see my reaction. But you were dead serious.

E dal tuo sguardo ho capito che era finita. Tutto quello che avevamo costruito in tutti quegli anni era finito. Ogni sogno, ogni speranza, ogni aspirazione. Era tutto inutile.

E io?

I just stood there, completely broken, staring at the wall in front of me. I was trying to say something but there wasn’t anything clever coming out of my mouth.

So, I just left. I packed my bags without a word and I left you. I felt like an injured wolf who needs to be alone to heal his wounds. My ego was shaken. My whole world was falling apart and I didn’t have any common sense.

Quel giorno ho passato tanto tempo a pensare a te e alla nostra vita insieme. Ero così arrabbiata con te perché hai preferito lei a me. Spero solo che ne valga la pena.

I hope she is worth all my pain and my tears. And I hope that you will be able to develop a normal and stable relationship with her. Maybe you didn’t love me enough.

Maybe our relationship already died but we weren’t aware of that fact. Maybe we let our happiness slip away. And just maybe we didn’t put enough effort into our story.

When I look back, I don’t regret anything. I am a strong woman and I can deal with my pain. Honestly, è molto meglio che tu mi abbia lasciato, but I would prefer that you hadn’t cheated on me.

I think I deserved that after all those years we spent together. Unfortunately, you did it on your own. You were selfish and you weren’t thinking about me. What else could I have expected from a man like you?

You broke me and you didn’t even ask me if I needed any help. We could have talked about it like adults. You could have been sincere with me.

You could have told me that you don’t feel anything for me and that you want to be with someone else. But you didn’t. And that is breaking my heart.

You didn’t just cheat on me, you cheated on us. You didn’t just break my heart, you broke our future. And that is something I will never forgive you.

And in the end, I have a message for you: “You can continue cheating yourself, but ME, never again!”