Ti ha perdonato ma non vuole avere niente a che fare con te

Non avrebbe mai pensato di trovare la forza di perdonarti for all the hell you’ve put her through. She never thought she would be able to forgive you for all the harm you’ve done to her.

Non avrebbe mai immaginato di poterti perdonare per tutte le lacrime che ha pianto per te. Per il modo in cui l'hai trattata o per come l'hai fatta sentire.

Ma eccola qui, a fare esattamente questo. Yes, that’s right—you’ve heard it well. This is her forgiving you.

But she isn’t doing it for your sake. No, the only person she is doing it for is herself.

Quando hai lasciato questa ragazza, hai lasciato anche tutta la tua negatività. È stato come se avessi trasferito su di lei tutta la tua tossicità e il tuo pessimismo.

After you left, anger and resentment started to consume her completely. She was pissed and furious at you for everything you’d done.

Tutto ciò a cui riusciva a pensare erano i modi per vendicarsi dolcemente di te perché pensava che questo fosse l'unico modo per ritrovare la pace.

Voleva vendicarsi di te e voleva che tu ti sentissi come si sentiva lei, perché pensava che fosse l'unico modo per guarire il suo cuore e il suo ego spezzati.

But then, it hit her. She had become a prisoner of her hatred toward you. And you still had power over her, even though you were gone. You were still a huge part of her life, even though you weren’t physically present in it.

She realized that she had become everything she swore she’d never be. Her hatred and anger made her become a bitter, negative and toxic person. Her negative emotions caged her and didn’t let her be free.

She realized that she was actually holding on to you as long as she was holding grudges. And that is why she finally let you go, together with all the bitterness and pessimism you’d left behind.

She decided it was time for her to forgive you because you didn’t deserve to still have an impact on her. You weren’t that important for her to dedicate her time or energy to hating you.

Ti ha perdonato perché ha finalmente accettato tutto quello che era successo. Ha accettato che non avrebbe mai potuto fare nulla per renderti diverso e che le cose dovevano semplicemente essere come erano.

Decise che era giunto il momento di accettare le scuse che non aveva mai ricevuto perché era l'unica cosa che l'avrebbe resa libera. Perché era l'unico modo per andare avanti con la sua vita e perché tu ne fossi davvero fuori.

But that doesn’t mean that her forgiveness is an invitation back into her life. Because it is anything but that.

Yes, she forgave you but she still doesn’t want anything to do with you.

The truth is that she forgave you but she definitely didn’t forget about everything you did to her. By forgiving you, she is letting go of you but it doesn’t mean that she is approving your actions or sending you the message that you didn’t do anything wrong.

Solo perché ha un cuore gentile e perché lei è indulgente, it doesn’t mean she is stupid. It doesn’t mean that she doesn’t see you for who you really are and it doesn’t mean she thinks of you in any better way than she did before.

It doesn’t mean that she hasn’t learned her lesson and it definitely doesn’t mean she is ready to repeat her mistakes.

By forgiving you, she isn’t giving you another chance to screw her up once more or to break her heart again. She isn’t giving you a green light or an opportunity to finish her off.

Instead, she is giving herself another chance to rise from the ashes you’ve put her in. She is giving herself a chance to completely move on from you and from all the pain you’ve made her experience.

Si sta dando la possibilità di ricominciare da capo e di avere un futuro senza di te.