My dearest,
I don’t think I ever told you how much you mean to me. I don’t think I ever told you how your love melted this ice-cold heart of mine. But, I guess you already knew that. I never told you how confused I was when I met you. I swore to never fall in love again, to build walls so high that not even the sun could come through. And you just walked by, like there was nothing around me, like I’d never been broken, like I’d never sworn to not fall again. Your smile knocked me off of my feet and you caught me before I touched the ground. The way we connected scared me but I couldn’t leave even if I’d wanted to. And staying was the best thing I ever did.
I wouldn’t mind hearing your voice for the rest of my life. Listening to you singing while making coffee and distorting songs under the shower. Listening to you talking about anything for hours, because your voice is my favorite melody, my favorite lullaby.
I wouldn’t mind seeing you in our children. Seeing your blue eyes and dark hair, seeing your smile and the way you tilt your head when you’re lost in thought. Seeing all of you in them would make me the happiest woman alive, because you are the greatest gift the heavens gave me. Our love is miracle-like, a love that mended a broken woman. A love that healed a shattered heart. A love that was never about saving any of us, but along the way it somehow did.
I wouldn’t mind looking at your face every morning for the rest of my days. For it to be the first thing I see when I open my eyes and the last one before I close them. The face that my heart recognizes before my mind does. The face that appears before my eyes when I think of the word ‘love’. The face that makes my world spin, no matter how long we’ve been together. The face that creates butterflies in my stomach even years after the first time we danced together the dance of love.
I wouldn’t mind listening to your heartbeat before I fall asleep every night, until I fall asleep for good. I wouldn’t mind all of my lasts to be with you. My last breath, my last heartbeat, my last kiss and hug. You’re the only one I want to spend my life with, the choice I’ll happily make every day for the rest of my life. The man I’ll proudly date even when I’m no longer able to walk, because you gave me so much more than memories. Your love gave me a reason to keep on fighting when I gave up on me. Your love gave me the strength to keep on going, when I wanted to curl up and disappear.
I wouldn’t mind dancing with you till my feet give up. Dancing with you through life is the greatest gift I could ask for. Moving in the rhythm of our love, in your arms, safe from the rest of the world. With my head on your chest, where I can hear your heartbeat until one of us is gone. And even then, I’ll keep on dancing for you, for us, for the memories we created together. For the love we built together. And even then, I’ll be waiting for you, so we can dance on for eternity.
I love you. All of you. I love your broken nose and the noise of your snoring that’s loud enough to keep the whole neighborhood up. I love your messy, black hair and the way it has its own will. I love the way wrinkles appear when you’re smiling at me. The way your head falls back when you’re laughing from your heart. You’re my favorite distraction, my biggest strength and weakness at the same time. I love the way you love me. The way you respect me and make me feel like I’m the only woman alive. Forever may seem like a long time, but I wouldn’t mind spending it loving you.