A melhor parte de te perder foi encontrar-me a mim próprio

Quando te afastaste de mim, para além de ter ficado devastada, também fiquei aterrorizada.

Como é que eu poderia continuar a minha vida sem ti ao meu lado?

How could I ever be happy when I didn’t have you?

Como é que eu poderia fazer alguma coisa sem ti a segurar a minha mão?

Enquanto estive contigo, deixei de existir como indivíduo.

I wasn’t a woman, a daughter or a friend anymore–I was nothing but your girlfriend, and I thought that was more than enough for me to have a purpose in life.

Tu foste o homem que me completou.

Foste a minha rocha, o meu apoio e a única pessoa em quem pensei que podia confiar.

Foste o meu salvador e o meu anjo da guarda.

The man who led me through life, and the man I couldn’t imagine myself living without.

The man I wasn’t capable of living without.

Pelo menos, era o que eu pensava.

Foi isso que se esforçou por me fazer acreditar e acabou por me convencer, apesar de a verdade ser completamente oposta.

It took me a while but I finally got it–durante todo este tempo, apenas se sentiu intimidado por mim.

Fizeste tudo o que estava ao teu alcance para me tornares emocionalmente dependente de ti e para baixares a minha autoestima, porque essa era a única maneira de não te sentires inferior a mim.

Só me querias arrastar para o teu nível porque era a única maneira de te sentires melhor contigo próprio e de sentires que eras homem suficiente.

No entanto, aqui estou eu, a viver a minha vida sem ti.

Aqui estou eu, a caminhar todos os dias mais poderoso do que alguma vez fui. Aqui estou eu, mais forte do que nunca.

I survived against all odds, didn’t I? I recovered.

Ergui-me das cinzas do meu coração despedaçado.

I’ve glued myself back together, and apparently, you didn’t succeed in breaking me when you broke my heart.

I guess that I didn’t lose much when I lost you… instead, I found my true self–the independent, fierce and mulher de topo Eu sou hoje.

So you leaving me wasn’t as awful as I thought it would be after all. Instead, it turned out to be the best thing that could have ever happened to me.

Obviously, instead of it being a curse–it was a blessing. Obviously, I would have never found myself if I hadn’t lost you.

If it weren’t for you walking away on me, I would never have known that I can make it by myself, without anyone, including you, having my back.

I wouldn’t have been aware of my inner strength and everything I am capable of.

I wouldn’t have known that I am a complete person on my own and that I don’t need any man to give my life meaning or to make my existence worthwhile.

That I don’t need anyone to confirm my value or to give me assurance that I am good enough.

If I hadn’t lost you, I wouldn’t have known that I am perfectly imperfect just the way I am.

I would never have accepted my flaws as parts of my personality, and I wouldn’t have known how amazing of a woman I actually am.

I wouldn’t have realized that I should never change for anyone’s sake nor should I modify myself to be more likeable to others or to fit some guy’s standards.

If you hadn’t backed out on me and abandoned me when I needed you the most, I wouldn’t have become my own hero.

I wouldn’t know that I am capable of healing and fixing myself without anyone’s assistance.

Nunca me teria apercebido de que sou o único responsável pela minha felicidade.

That I can’t expect any man in this world to ever make me happy unless I do it myself first.

That a man’s job isn’t to give me purpose–it’s just to make my already amazing life a little bit better.

Mais importante ainda, if I hadn’t lost you, I would never have found the self-love I desperately needed.

I wouldn’t have known that I have to appreciate, respect, and love myself before expecting anyone else to do it.

Assim obrigado. Obrigado por me teres abandonado, por me teres deixado e por me teres traído da forma como o fizeste.

Obrigada por me ter transformado numa melhor versão de mim mesma, apesar de ter sido a última coisa que tencionava fazer e a última coisa que eu esperava que acontecesse.