Questo è per una giovane moglie da una padrona a lungo termine
I never wanted to take him away from you. He came to me, all broken and tired, asking for some love. So, I gave him a shelter in my heart and my bed. I made all his bad dreams go away. He was so happy when he was with me but I saw in his eyes that he was not completely satisfied. I knew he was thinking about you all the time. About the pain he was doing to you. But at the same time, he didn’ want to stop. I don’t know why he is cheating you with me. Maybe I have something that he misses about you. Maybe that is the one piece of the puzzle he needs to be completely happy. And he found it in me.
I want you to know I didn’t vuole essere il SECONDO. I wanted to be the one and only but life didn’t give me that opportunity. So, I accept every invitation to be someone’s first choice even for one night. Because being the second one hurts me a lot.
Voglio che tu sappia che anch'io provo dei sentimenti.
I am not a cold-blooded bitch like you think. I felt frustrated when he couldn’t come because you were having your friends over. I was upset every time he canceled our meeting because the two of you had an emergency.
Poi mi toglievo la biancheria di pizzo e spegnevo le candele. Facevo tutto questo in silenzio.
In those moments, I became aware of the fact that I am the second one. Probably, I will always be in that position because I don’t know how to be monogamous. It is in my genes and I can’t do anything about it. A leopard can’t change its spots.
I am trying to fall in love with one man only but after some time I realize he is not the one I need. I start hating him for the things he does and the ones he doesn’t do as well. And I can’t get away of that circle because I am not doing anything to escape.
Mi piacerebbe cambiare e spero di riuscirci un giorno. Ma fino ad allora probabilmente andrò a letto con ogni uomo che mi presta attenzione. È triste, vero?
Sai, il tuo uomo non è stato l'unico a tradire la moglie con me. Molti uomini hanno attraversato la mia vita e tutti se ne sono andati con cicatrici emotive.
Frankly speaking, I don’t know why guys cheat.
Non si tratta di macho che saltano da un letto all'altro, ma di mariti devoti e padri amorevoli. C'è qualche ragione, a me sconosciuta, che li spinge a vendere il loro vero amore per un'avventura di una notte.
But no matter how exciting it is to be a forbidden fruit, in the end, I get sick and tired of being the second one. Because every man in the end, chooses his wife, the mother of his kids and I always stay alone. They don’t care about my feelings and my needs since they were with me just to please theirs.
Quindi, voglio che tu sappia una cosa: se mai dovessi scoprire che ti ha tradito, per favore trattalo nello stesso modo in cui lui ha trattato te. Sarà il suo campanello d'allarme e si renderà conto del tesoro che ha perso solo perché pensava con il pisello invece che con la testa.
E io?
Supererò tutto questo da sola. Sono abbastanza forte da sopportare tutto il dolore e le lacrime dopo che mi avrà lasciato per andare a confortarti. Non è la mia prima volta e mi sono già abituata a questi schiaffi che la vita mi dà.
Troverò un modo per uscire da questo inferno. E le cose andranno meglio per me.
They have to be…
L'infranto
