Si te vas a alejar de mí, por favor, no te acerques

"Querido tú",

If you are planning on walking away from my life, please stay as far away as you can. I won’t be begging you to stay and I will respect your decision.

You were probably thinking about that for a long time and in the end you made the right decision. So, don’t think that I will make a scene in front of you or that I will tell you that I will kill myself if you leave.

Estaré un poco destrozado, pero me las arreglaré para levantarme y empezar de cero.

I know that it won’t be easy and I know that I will spend so many sleepless nights thinking about you, but some day it will pay off.

Cada lágrima que caiga dará sus frutos y yo por fin ser feliz.

But in all this mess that we are currently going through, I want one thing to be crystal clear—if you leave me once, you can’t get a second chance.

I won’t be there to tell you that we can start over and that everything will be fine. I won’t be able to handle months passing by and then you realize that you still love me so you decide to come back into my life again.

At first it will be messaging me on social media sites. Then you won’t get enough of me so you will want to see me.

Me llamarás a altas horas de la noche sólo para oír mi voz y pensaré que tal vez aún hay esperanza para los dos.

I can’t handle going through the same hell with you again.

I can’t stand that you will look at me with those puppy dog eyes one more time and that a spark between us will be stronger than ever before but in the blink of an eye it will burn out, together with our love.

I can’t handle your promises anymore. I don’t need them, I need consistency.

I don’t want to give myself false hope that everything will be fine and then when I least expect it, my house of cards falls.

I can’t handle sharing my life with you again. Because if I do that, it will be like a ticking bomb until you shut me out of your life again.

I can’t give myself all in because I know that in the end, I will end up broken with so many scars and cracks in my heart.

The last thing I want is to have dreams with you and watch them fall apart again. I can’t go through that anymore. I am not strong enough to put up with your crap anymore.

But most of all, I can’t stand your promises of eternal love anymore.

Una vez me dejaste en ridículo, pero you won’t get a second chance para hacer eso. Si algo he aprendido hasta ahora es a no confiar en quien te ha hecho daño intencionadamente.

So, no matter what you do, I will never let you hurt me again. I won’t be the one who will sit and wait for you, being afraid that you will be in a bad mood and that you will blame me for all of your problems.

I don’t want to be the one who will beg for love. Love is not about that. Love should be as natural as breathing and I won’t settle for someone who doesn’t understand that.

Me merezco mucho más de lo que me puedes dar. ¡Me merezco amor de verdad y sobre todo me merezco un hombre que se quede!