En el fondo sabía que era hora de dejarte ir

For a long time, I wasn’t happy. I knew that something was missing. You weren’t the same. That sparkle you had in your eyes when we talked was gone.

I couldn’t help but notice it, you changed and so did your feelings. You weren’t man enough to tell me that you’d stopped loving me.

You became so cold. I couldn’t recognize you anymore. Sometimes it seemed to me like I was dating a complete stranger. I knew it was time for me to leave.

I couldn’t. I couldn’t let you go even though, deep down I knew it was time to do so.

Every time I wanted to do it, my heart would skip a beat, like it was trying to say that it still wasn’t ready.

I couldn’t go against my heart. I knew how much love for you it had carried all these years.

Quién podría culparlo, it didn’t know that you would break it en un millón de pedazos.

Yo soy la culpable. Fui tan ingenua por confiar en ti y darte todo mi corazón. Tenías mi corazón en tus manos. En cierto modo, permití que lo rompieras.

I am so very sorry for that. I should have let you go the moment I realized that you didn’t love me in the same way. Before you broke my heart.

Now that ‘sorry’ doesn’t mean anything because the pain is here. It’s still here, it still hurts like the first day and I don’t know when it is going to stop hurting.

Honestly, sometimes I fear that it will never stop. Sometimes I’m worried about my future because what if I never gather the courage to move on?

A veces tengo estos pensamientos oscuros que realmente me asustan.

Just like the thought of losing you scared me once. I thought that I wouldn’t survive if I lost you.

Pero lo hice. Y sé que  Seguiré adelante algún día and leave you in the past. I just need time. Time to grieve. Time to heal. Time to forgive. Time to forget…

Oh, forget. Trust me, that’s all I want right now. I want to forget everything. I want to forget you, your sweet face, and all the good things you did for me because they are making me miss you.

Esas cosas me causan un dolor aún mayor.

Quiero olvidar todas esas veces que dijiste que me amarías el resto de tu vida y que nada podría separarnos jamás. Esas palabras están grabadas en mi corazón.

Y lo más importante, quiero olvidar cómo me siento ahora. Todo este dolor y rabia.

Esta decepción y frustración. Quiero olvidar todo lo que me impide seguir adelante.

I really thought that we were meant to last forever. Now it’s hard for me to accept the fact that our relationship ended. It’s hard to accept that you are no longer a part of my life.

Esperé demasiado tiempo algún tipo de señal por tu parte. Algo que me dijera que estaba equivocada y que aún me querías como antes.

Realmente esperaba estar paranoica y que se me pasara y volviéramos a ser felices como antes. Que estaríamos locamente enamorados, como al principio.

That was my mistake. I should’ve listened to my inner voice. It told me that it was time to let you go.

Demonios, estaba gritando que necesitaba salvarme y la única manera de hacerlo era dejarte ir.

Delaying the fact that I needed to let you go didn’t change anything. In fact, it even brought me greater pain.

I believed that love is the only important thing in life. But it’s not. Self-respect is also important.

Y nunca valdrá la pena sacrificar tu dignidad por ningún tipo de amor.

Mi decisión finalmente dejarte ir me cambió la vida. Admito que fue doloroso y que aún duele, pero poco a poco estoy aprendiendo a encontrar consuelo en mi propio dolor.

Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco a continuar con mi vida, sin tu amor.