Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco a vivir sin ti

Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco a vivir sin ti. It hasn’t been that long since we split apart but to me it has been like an eternity.

Te estaba esperando para darme cuenta de lo rota y asustada que estaba vivir mi vida sin ti en ella pero me he recuperado. Puedo hacerlo sin ti.

Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco a vivir sin mi mejor amigo. You were both a friend and a lover. That’s probably why I loved every little part of your personality.

I loved our late-night conversations and the way you’d hold me like no one would ever again touch me after you. We were so wrong for each other but it still felt so right.

Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco a vivir sin tu beso de buenos días. Today was the first morning that I didn’t wake up expecting you to kiss me and wish me a beautiful day.

Usually I forget that you’re no longer here with me but this morning I woke up realizing that you weren’t sleeping next to me and that I was alone.

Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco por qué rompimos. I didn’t understand it then because it was such an emotional event that I wasn’t able to think straight. I only thought about how it must have been a joke and that this wasn’t happening to me—¡pero lo era!

Now I see that we broke up because we didn’t want the same things in our lives. You wanted a career and I wanted a family.

You wanted to work and leave the country, while my own ambition in life was to bring a wonderful child into this world with you. You didn’t like kids. You never did.

I am slowly learning that it’s OK. Estaré bien. and you will be fine, we won’t be together ever again but it is OK. I don’t blame you for what happened and I have stopped blaming myself.

It’s just how life works sometimes. We have to be aware of the fact that people split up for more tragic reasons than we did.

Poco a poco estoy aprendiendo a perdonar. As I said, I don’t blame either of us anymore. I have learned that holding grudges is poisonous to my own mind and soul, so I stopped blaming and holding on to what happened.

It’s all in the past now, so Te perdono and I forgive myself. We both deserve forgiveness because it wasn’t our fault that we split up. It was simply the fact that we weren’t meant to be.

I am slowly learning that love can’t be unconditional—por mucho que me duela decir esto, porque siempre me he considerado alguien que lleva el corazón en la manga y que siempre debería amar y dar porque el mundo necesita más gente así.

But the truth is that love can’t be unconditional. We have to know our boundaries, our limits. You have to give something back if you want me to be there for you.

It’s just how the world works. I can’t just stand around and watch you take advantage of my kindness.

I am slowly learning that it doesn’t have to hurt forever. Of course, I was devastated because you weren’t in my life anymore.

Now I see that it doesn’t have to hurt forever because the world has so many wonders for me that I can be enormously happy even without you in my life.

My chest doesn’t have to hurt forever to remind me of what I have lost but you can rather slip away into a happy memory of a life I had in the past.

Estoy aprendiendo poco a poco que seré amada y que volveré a amar. I’m sure everyone goes through the stage of misery after a break-up, when they are thinking that it’s impossible to fall in love ever again but it’s not.

Hay alguien ahí fuera who’s meant to be mine and that one person will stay by my side forever. We will go through everything together but he is going to stay. Someone is going to stay!

That’s why I am no longer crying. Sometimes, I remember you and it makes me remember what we went through and it makes me remember that love is so fragile.

Pero me da esperanza para una nueva vida. Gracias a estos pensamientos, estoy aprendiendo poco a poco a vivir sin ti.