He Terminado De Quererte Más De Lo Que Me Quiero A Mí Mismo

You know very well how much I love you. You know I’ve loved you from the moment I saw you. I was never someone who believed in amor a primera vistahasta que puse mis ojos en ti. Y cuando eso sucedió, todo dentro de mí cambió. Yo cambié.

From that moment, you became the centre of my universe. Suddenly, everything in my life revolved around you. I only had eyes for you and your happiness was the only thing that mattered. You became the most important person in my life. I am ashamed to say it, but you became more important than my family, my friends, my job… Sobre todo, te volviste más importante que yo. Y ese fue mi mayor error.

But, I am not here to talk to you about the love I felt and I am still feeling for you. You know that very well. Even when we were at our worst, when we argued and when we were leaving each other, I am positive you never doubted my love. Even in moments of anger, when you tried to accuse me that I didn’t love you enough, deep down you knew that wasn’t true. You were always aware that my love was one of the rare constants in your life.

But even that didn’t make you appreciate it. Even that didn’t make you appreciate me and everything I did for us to work out. I won’t talk to you about that either. You may try to fight it, but you know how much harm you did to me. You know how toxic you were for me and you know you destroyed everything we had.

What you didn’t manage to destroy was my love for you. And I wish you had.

Because I can’t live with it anymore. I can’t love you this much anymore because it is slowly ruining me and everything I am.

I can’t love you more than Me quiero porque este amor se ha vuelto destructivo para mi existencia. Y por eso he terminado.

I finally accept that you refuse to be healed and fixed. I finally accept that there is nothing left for me to do to make you a better man. You know I’ve tried everything, but you just didn’t want to take my hand. That is why He terminado de intentar arreglarte. Porque nunca pusiste el más mínimo esfuerzo en ayudarme. Y por eso, no logré nada. Nada, aparte de ser arrastrada a tu oscuridad junto contigo. Seguiste siendo el mismo hombre tóxico de siempre y todos mis esfuerzos por cambiarlo fueron en vano.

He terminado de darte todo mi ser. He terminado darte todo lo que tengo y no recibir nada a cambio. Because now I know that none of it has. You’ll never let me in completely and I’ll never enter the dark chambers of your soul, no matter how hard I try.

He terminado de lidiar con tus problemas. He dejado de permitir que tus problemas me consuman por completo. He dejado de permitir que no pienses en tu vida y en las consecuencias de tus actos.

He terminado de estar siempre ahí para ti. Porque nunca estuviste a mi lado. Durante todos estos años que pasamos juntos, nunca tuve todo tu apoyo y siempre tuve que ir sola por la vida. A pesar de eso, actuabas como si yo estuviera obligada a cubrirte las espaldas. Sabías que, hicieras lo que hicieras, metieras la pata lo que metieras, yo estaría dispuesta a luchar contra el mundo por ti. Siempre supiste que estaría ahí para cogerte cuando cayeras.

He terminado de ponerte en primer lugar. It is one thing to put someone you love at the top of your priority list, but it is something completely different putting someone before yourself. I am done making you my priority. I know it’s time for me to finally become my own priority. It’s time for me to finally see my true worth and to stop allowing you to diminish it.  It’s about time for me to start loving and appreciating myself. Because if I don’t do it, no one else will.

Ya no me conformo con menos. Porque esto es menos. Tu amor no es suficiente para mí y nunca lo será. Por fin entiendo que merezco mucho más y estoy lista para más.

Sé que probablemente estabas convencido de que este día nunca llegaría, pero este soy yo diciéndote que he terminado. He terminado. prendiéndome fuego para mantenerte caliente y he terminado de quererte más que Me quiero.