La verdad sobre la chica que siempre ama más de lo que es correspondida

Siempre he sido esa chica que daba el ciento diez por ciento a alguien que me daba menos del cien por cien.

I’ve always been that girl who had to find a little extra love to compensate for the lack of affection I was given in return.

I’m not saying I have never been loved, nor am I saying that I can’t be loved. 

But what I’ve come to realize recently is that I always have to be the one who gives more because otherwise I fear I would get nada de nada.

And this is a hard thing to say out loud, which I’m sure anyone who has struggled with this dreadful feeling can understand.

I would never say this to anyone face-to-face. I’m too ashamed that I feel this way.

But it’s my truth and I have to live with it.

I don’t know if there’s something wrong with me that makes me difficult to love completely and irrevocably… but it sure as hell feels that way at times.

Incluso con mi último novio, me sentí exactamente así. Sabía que le importaba hasta cierto punto. Sabía que sentía algo por mí.

But I just wasn’t enough. I wasn’t su prioridad. I was never the one he’d leave wherever he was in an instant and come to be by my side.

Yo era más bien una opción decente, pero si había alguien por ahí que era más guapo y más supermodelo, yo estaba seguro en el segundo plano.

Y dolió mucho.

Pero mi problema era que nunca hablaba. Nunca dije nada.

Simplemente acepté aquella situación de mierda como lo que era porque pensé que era mejor que te dieran amor a trozos que estar completamente sola.

But the real truth about constantly being the girl who loves more than she is loved back is that she’s harto.

She no longer accepts only half of the attention and half of anyone’s love.

¡Lo quiere todo o nada! Porque, ¿adivina qué?

Esos idiotas que la consideran indigna de toda su atención son los que tienen problemas.—NO a ella.

Those who treat the people they’re supposed to cherish as an option are the ones who are eventually going to get stung.

It’s only a matter of time.

Durante mucho tiempo he vivido con esa sensación de picazón dentro de mí, como si tuviera algún defecto.

Durante mucho tiempo me sentí poco guapa, poco inteligente o poco interesante.

For too long I accepted far less than I deserve and I know I’m not alone in feeling this way. 

Sé que hay tantas chicas ahí fuera que temen el rechazo hasta el punto de aceptar cualquier amor que se les ponga por delante.

But the truth is that those who refuse to give you everything that you deserve and don’t treat you with the utmost respect are nothing but assholes in disguise who are not worthy of a single tear of yours!

Son ellos los que deberían sentirse así, NO tú.

Eres una mujer perfectamente buena, amable, inteligente y hermosa que encontrará su final feliz.

And those jerks are going to end up alone because they can’t give their whole heart to any one person.

In a way, you should feel sorry for them. So what if that idiot couldn’t give you all of his love? 

¿Y qué si sólo aparecía la mitad de las veces que lo necesitabas?

That doesn’t mean you’re at fault. It means he’s a no-good type of idiot who couldn’t see a good thing if it stared him right in the face!

 So don’t worry about him and all those like him.

Ellos son los que un día acabarán mendigando las migajas de tu amor. Te lo prometo.

Quizá no mañana y quizá no hasta dentro de unos años.

But when enough time has passed and he is still living that superficial single life that got him nowhere, he’ll come crawling back.

But the only difference is that this time, you’ll be the one turning your back on him.

You’ll be the one who decides that he isn’t suficientemente bueno para TI.

And that is going to be one of the most satisfying feelings you’ve ever felt.

Looking him straight in the eye with a short and sweet, ‘’Nope!’’ while showing him the door.

And then, you never have to think about him again. Because he’s too big of a wuss to face you ever again.

The truth is that being a girl who loves more isn’t all that bad when you really think about it. 

Porque te enseña a tener paciencia y te muestra lo resistente que eres.

You learn to be the best and strongest version of yourself and isn’t that something to be thankful for?

If you hadn’t gone through all that, you wouldn’t be aware of what you’re capable of enduring.

If all those jerks hadn’t been such assholes, you probably wouldn’t be able to appreciate the good in your life the way you do now.

Y eso es lo que te hace mejor que ellos.

You learn and grow from this. And them? They stay the same immature boys who can’t appreciate a good woman if their lives depended on it.

And ultimately, you’re the only one who comes out of this a winner—en todos los aspectos que realmente importan.