No mereces seguirme hasta 2025

No me diste más que penas en 2024, así que ¿por qué debería traerte conmigo en 2025?

I want to enter this coming year with only good things. I decided to leave everything that hurt me, made me sad or left me a little broken in this year—2024. I hope now you understand why I don’t want you next to me anymore.

Literalmente arruinaste mi último año y sé que cargo con parte de la culpa porque te di demasiado poder sobre mí. Por suerte recuperé la cordura y ahora sé que no cometeré el mismo error dos veces.

This year was an emotional rollercoaster for me. You made it like that. You left and then you wanted to come back. You didn’t care how that made me feel. You didn’t care that it broke me.

Sólo empeoré las cosas para mí al aceptarte de nuevo porque te di más oportunidades de seguir rompiéndome.

You said you wanted to be with me and only me, and then I’d find out that you had plenty of other girls in your life. I guess you wanted to be with me and fifty of them, too. And I didn’t want to be just a number to you.

You made me believe you cared for me. But I couldn’t count on you when I needed you the most. You were never there. And the worst part of it is that I felt more alone with you than I am now by myself.

Tú fuiste la razón de cada noche de insomnio durante este último año. Tú fuiste cada lágrima que rodó por mi cara.

Tú eras la razón por la que odiaba levantarme de la cama por las mañanas. Odiaba el día que acababa de empezar porque sabía que estaría lleno de pensamientos sobre ti.

It seemed like you were doing things intentionally… just to hurt me.

Eras egoísta como siempre y nunca pensaste en cómo me afectarían tus palabras y tus actos, pero parecía que para ti era una ventaja si me hacías sentir miserable conmigo misma.

And on the other side, I did the opposite. I wanted to be there for you. I wanted us to work out. I tried so hard to be good enough for you, but somehow I didn’t manage to satisfy your criteria.

Cuanto mejor te trataba, peor eras para mí.

You had to put me down so you could feel better about yourself and you succeeded in your attempts. I felt worthless. You lowered my self-esteem so much that I wasn’t even a shadow of a woman I used to be.

Odiaba ese sentimiento de incapacidad que me perseguía. Sentía que hiciera lo que hiciera, nunca era suficiente.

You kept saying how I’m ruining everything for you. You kept saying I should be happy that you give me any time of yours because I didn’t deserve even the time I hizo conseguir.

In your mind, you were just one of those generous guys who didn’t have a mean bone in their bodies so you decided to stick with me. Well, as if!

You were with me just to have someone. I was good to you. Nobody cared for you as much as I did and that’s why you kept coming back to me. But you didn’t really love me.

Because if you did, you’d care about how I feel. You’d pay attention to the things you did and you’d make sure you don’t do anything to hurt me. But somehow, everything you did was like a dagger straight in my heart.

Incluso cuando estábamos juntos, nunca sentí que fueras mía Sentía que los demás te tenían más que yo.

You don’t know how that feels because you were always my priority, but trust me when I tell you, it hurts like hell to know the person you care the most for doesn’t really give a damn about you.

Duele mucho cuando no eres más que una opción para alguien que es todo tu mundo.

La verdad es que me cansé de todo.

I got tired of being sad. I got tired of waiting for someone who isn’t coming. I got tired of wanting you when you wanted everyone else but me. And most of all, I got tired of loving someone who didn’t love me back.

De ahí la decisión de cortar todos mis hilos contigo aquí y ahora.

I decided to leave ‘us’ y todo lo que podríamos ser en 2024.

He decidido empezar un nuevo capítulo de mi vida en este año que está por venir y espero que sea mejor que el anterior.

But I can’t get a fresh start or look forward to a happy ending if I let the same people who broke me play main roles in this new chapter.

You did too many bad things to me and I’m sorry, but someone like you doesn’t deserve to follow me into 2025. You don’t deserve to play any role in my new chapter. That’s why I’m leaving you in the past.

I’m ready for new things in life. I’m ready to finally embrace my life and I’m ready to stop giving the best of me to people who don’t deserve me, and you, my dear, never really deserved me.