No perderé más mi tiempo con tus señales mixtas
I’ve already wasted 2 years, 25 days, 2 hours and 12 minutes deciphering your mixed signals and I won’t waste another second. I won’t wait for a miracle. I won’t spend my life hoping for something that will never be. I am putting a stop to it here and now.
I know you don’t agree. I know you will want me back now that I am slipping through your fingers. I know it because we’ve already had situations like this. I would say how I can’t put up with your crap anymore and that we are done. But you would always find a way to sneak back under my skin.
Me decías todo lo que quería oír y yo te creía porque mi corazón quería creerte. Mis instintos me decían que estabas mintiendo, pero quería que estuvieran equivocados, así que opté por ignorarlos. Fui en contra de mi buen juicio y seguí depositando toda mi confianza en alguien tan vago.
Utilizaste esas señales contradictorias para mantenerme tan cerca como querías y ni una pulgada más cerca. Siempre estuve en algún lugar delante de tu corazón, pero nunca me dejaste entrar de verdad. Por otro lado, todo mi ser era tuyo y tú lo sabías bien.
Sabías lo fuertes que eran mis sentimientos y lo tomaste como mi debilidad. En lugar de apreciarme a mí y la forma en que te trataba, seguiste jugando. Un día, estabas encima de mí. Yo era el sol de tu día y la luz de la luna que te guiaba por la noche y al momento siguiente, me apagabas por completo.
You would send me the sweetest text and then go days without responding to a text from me. You would make plans for us to see a movie I’d been telling you about for so long and then you would cancel plans last minute. You would say I was the most beautiful and most interesting woman alive then you would go weeks without seeing me, always having some lame-ass excuse.
Nunca quisiste etiquetar anything because you were not ready but then you would introduce me to your friends. You would say you can’t commit right now but you don’t know what the future will bring. You would say you don’t want to be exclusive but you couldn’t stand seeing me with anybody else.
Estabas lleno de contradicciones. Decías una cosa, hacías otra y sólo Dios sabe lo que pensabas de verdad. Utilizabas esas señales contradictorias. Confiabas en que yo viera lo mejor de ti y te has salido con la tuya durante mucho tiempo.
For way too long in fact and I should have put a stop to this a long time ago. I should have remembered that I am worthy of love—that true, unconditional, can’t live without you tipo de amor—and not settle for this BS you were giving me. I should have seen that the message behind those mixed signals was obvious: you just don’t care about me enough.
I’ve finally gotten that message now. 2 years, 25 days, 2 hours and 12 minutes after but just in time to say my final goodbye and thank you for the lesson. I will never again waste my time on anybody who even tries to send me mixed signals. Next time, I will recognize the meaning behind the message. Next time, I will ignore it without giving it a second look.
