Me quiero lo suficiente por los dos

Here I am. Sitting alone in a dark room, wiping away my tears because I couldn’t find a way to hold them in anymore. Ya no puedo ocultarlo. Estoy herido. Estoy herido por la persona que más significa para mí. He sido herido por alguien que pensé que estaría a mi lado el resto de mi vida.

Conoces la sensación cuando empiezas a notar que algo va mal. The moment you realize that you have been the person who had kept the threads together and the person who worked so hard on keeping you both happy. But it didn’t work.

Lo intenté todo y en el momento en que empecé a darme cuenta de que no podía hacer otra cosa que encerrarme en un rincón y llorar fue mi colapso final, en el que decidí que ya era suficiente. I am done with waiting for you to call or text me and constantly jumping whenever my phone rings, hoping that it’s you. I’m done with waiting for you at cafes without you even showing up. I’m done being your final resort when nothing else works.

Fui tu saco de boxeo desde el principio. and you didn’t know how to politely tell me that you were sick of me, so you started your passive-aggressive behavior, hoping that I would be the one to end our misery. But the only problem was that I still kept on holding on to everything we had because I wasn’t ready to throw everything away so easily.

Si ya no eres capaz de amarme, entonces, ¿adivina qué? Soy capaz de amarme lo suficiente por los dos. I don’t need you to tell me that I’m beautiful because I believe in my own beauty. I am done with being an option for you, when I can be my own priority.

You were never able to put down some work to see me, when I was the one who would stay up until 4 a.m. just so I could finish my work for the day, because I didn’t get to do it throughout the day. Tenía tantas ganas de verte que cada vez que me llamabas corría hacia ti, para verte y abrazarte. Pero nunca mostraste ningún tipo de excitación al ver que me acercaba a ti.

Ese es el problema entre nosotros. Crees que estaré a tu lado para siempre, pase lo que pase. I’m sorry to disappoint you, but I’m not going to sit around and wait for you to realize what you’re about to lose because you didn’t start treating me like I deserved to be treated.

I know that I may seem shy and reserved, but believe me, I know my own worth too well and there is nothing that anything and no one who can tell me otherwise, not even you. I know that I was giving you myself a hundred percent when you didn’t bother to give me anything.

Por ahora, no puedo hacer otra cosa que irme. Si acabo encontrando a alguien digno de mi amor y afecto, alguien que esté a mi lado incluso cuando las cosas se pongan difíciles, puede que me plantee querer a otra persona tanto como a Me quiero. But until then, I don’t want to hear a word from your selfish mouth that only knew how to take but never give.

Me quiero lo suficiente por los dos. That’s why I don’t need you to be in my life anymore. I don’t need you to stay around anymore. Because I’m leaving. At least I think I’m doing you a favor this way. Goodbye.