La paz que siento ahora vale todo lo que perdí cuando te dejé

Soy una persona nueva ahora que no estás en mi vida. No he vuelto a ser quien era antes de ti. Ahora soy mejor.

Antes de ti, ni siquiera sabía lo desordenada que podía llegar a ser mi vida. Todo el amor y todo el odio hacían la vida insoportable. Contigo fui muchas cosas, pero nunca pacífica.

A girl needs her peace. That’s exactly what I got by losing you.

I’m not saying everything between us was bad. Still, the way you challenged everything I thought I knew about myself, love, and relationships kept me on my toes all the time. It was exhausting.

I tried to make us work. I gave everything I had and more. Somehow, it was never enough. There was always something missing. I got tired, I’m sorry.

Leaving you was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. I’ve lost so much. All the sweet ways you showed me how much you cared, all the lovely words you used to say to me.

I’ve lost spending every minute of my free time with you, just hanging out. I’ve lost all the delightful plans we had for the future.

I know that. That’s what made leaving so difficult. Still, what I have now is worth even more.

Contigo, las cosas nunca estaban claras. Nunca tuve la certeza absoluta de que lo que decías un día seguiría siendo cierto al día siguiente.

Cuando tenías un buen día las cosas eran perfectas, pero eran tus días malos los que me arruinaban.

Empecé a sentirme sola, traicionada, invisible. Todo esto se mezclaba con todo el amor que sentía por ti y todo el amor que creía que tú sentías por mí.

Al final, todo lo que teníamos era una maraña de promesas que nunca se cumplían, mentiras que se acumulaban, silencios que ya no eran agradables.

Mirando hacia atrás, parece que me perdí, empujando para mantenernos vivos. Cada pequeña parte de mi energía se fue en desenredar esa horrible red que creamos.

It couldn’t be untangled. I know that now. There was nothing anyone could do. There were simply too many bad things in our past to hope for a bright, shiny future.

I loved you. I don’t blame you for anything. You helped me learn so many things about life, love, and myself.

You changed many of my perspectives and I’m grateful for that because it changed my life.

The pain from losing you has been replaced by a feeling of accomplishment. It’s been replaced by pride.

I’m so proud of myself for being strong enough to put my life in order. I’m so proud that I know when to stop trying.

You weren’t a waste of my time. Many things in our relationship will remain my most precious memories.

It would sadden me if you thought I abandoned you. I didn’t. I had to go back to finding myself, loving myself, supporting myself.

I’ll never forget you. Our kisses mixed with tears have left a deep mark on my heart. That mark will always be there to remind me of you.

Digo con orgullo que valoro lo que tengo ahora más que todo lo que tuvimos, más que todo lo que perdí, cuando te perdí.

The most important life choices are never easy, and this was the hardest decision I ever had to make. I don’t regret my choice.

Llega un momento en la vida en que nada es más importante que permitirte vivir tu mejor vida. Mi momento llegó cuando terminé contigo.

Me leaving wasn’t an act of ditching you, it was an act of finding myself again – something I desperately needed.

Instead of letting you break me to pieces, I’ve led myself to peace.