Todavía te quiero, sólo que no me gusta la persona en la que te has convertido

Dicen que todo amor verdadero debe ser incondicional. Cuando amas a una persona, la amas entera y completamente, sin hacer preguntas.

Les quieres con todos sus defectos e imperfecciones. Los aceptas exactamente como son y nunca intentas cambiar su esencia.

You love them the same through their best and through their worst. At least, that is how things should be, shouldn’t they?

Y así es como te amé. Te quería, pasara lo que pasara y a pesar de todo.

Y Todavía te quierode eso no hay duda. Te quiero even though the truth is I don’t want to love you.

Aunque lucho contra mis sentimientos, de algún modo siempre salen fortalecidos y de algún modo siempre ganan.

De algún modo, mi corazón siempre gana a mi razón y, aparentemente, no hay nada que pueda hacer al respecto, por mucho que lo intente.

Quiero que sepas que, lamentablemente para mí, este profundo y enorme amor que siento por ti poco o nada tiene que ver con todo lo que voy a contarte.

But that doesn’t mean I am not going to say it.

The truth is that I don’t like the person you’ve become, even though Todavía quiero a esa persona.

To be honest, I don’t know how that is even possible. How can you love someone without liking them?

Well, I myself don’t know the answer but this is exactly how I feel. And it wasn’t like that from the beginning.

Me enamoré de ti por tus cualidades y por el hombre que solías ser.

Me enamoré de tu honestidad, de la fuerza de tu carácter y de tu personalidad, entre otras cosas.

Me enamoré de ti porque eras un hombre de verdad que sabía apreciar los valores reales y que sabía respetarme.

When I first met you, I thought I’d finally found everything I was looking for.

Por supuesto, no estoy tratando de decir que eras este chico perfecto porque definitivamente tenías tus defectos, igual que yo.

Pero esencialmente, sabía que eras una persona buena, cariñosa y atenta.

And with time, you’ve changed and everything about you changed. And you’ve become everything you swore you’d never become.

I am scared to admit this to myself and to say it out loud but it seems to me that you’ve become a bad guy, a bad person, and that is something I’m struggling to accept.

I don’t know what has happened to you and if your change of character had anything to do with me.

I don’t know if this was the real you all along and if you just pretended to be someone you were not until you saw you had me but the fact is that I don’t like the man you’ve turned out to be.

The fact is that I wouldn’t like you to be my friend and that I wouldn’t like you in my life if I didn’t love you.

The fact is that I don’t like this hombre egoísta que sólo cuida de sí mismo y que siempre se pone en primer lugar.

That I don’t like how you’ve become indifferent toward everyone else’s emotions and the fact that you’ve become immune to the pain you’ve been causing me.

That I don’t like the fact that you’ve started taking me for granted and that you’ve stopped putting any effort into our relationship, like I have to stay by your side, no matter what.

It’s like all of a sudden you’ve become this toxic, negative and bitter man who enjoys manipulating and hurting others, without ever thinking of the consequences.

But most of all—I don’t like the person you’ve become because you keep acting like you’ve lost all respect for me.

It is more than obvious that you don’t appreciate any of my sacrifices and the things I’ve done for our relationship.

It is like you deliberately keep finding ways to hurt me and to diminish my worth. It’s like you enjoy breaking my heart.

And the worst part is that I can’t recognize you anymore. Because you are definitely not the man I fell in love with.